🛇Problems🚫

Worries

Sooooo.
I have a lot of worries.
People sometimes get annoyed with me because I worry about everything to much.
I worry about I'm going to do when I get out highschool.
I Sony even know what college I want to go.
How am I going to become a photographer (all the head photos and stuff are mine).
Where am I going to live.
How much money do I need to save.
How am I going to be able to be good enough to get into a good college.
Why do I always forget things.
Why do I have so many guilty feelings.
WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO STUPID, I'M SO DUMB I CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!?!? JUST LET MYSELF DROWN IN ALL OF MY PROBLEMS: MY INSECURITIES MY WORRIES MY FEARS EVERYTHING. How am I supposed to be good enough for anything. All I do is ruin everything.
All I do is get into trouble. Why can't I just be a good kid with good grades and good everything. Why do I have to be the shy quiet kid that everyone picks on. Why? Just why me?
Why do I have to go through all of this?
.....
All I want to do is lay down and just cry.....cry until I feel better.....
But I can't do that I have to be strong...
But I don't feel like I have enough will to be able to be strong for myself..
I'm just so tired.
I don't want to do it anymore.
I want to be worry free.
I don't want to have to go through this anymore.
Feeling so dumb and forgotten and just alone.
I feel like I can't talk to anyone about this......