Oops.
Charlotte was right, I should of told Dean the day we went to the park together. But instead he had to find out in the most awkwardest way ever. Technically I could of told the lady to shove it and say it has nothing to do with her, but im not the type of person thats rude to people, not like my mom. Or well I could of said that I'm not pregnant at all, im just here for a check up or picking up birth control. But i'm also not the type of person that lies. Okay, so I tell the odd little white lie, mainly to my parents, everyone does. I'm technically not lying to my parents now, they've never asked whether i'm okay or if somethings wrong. Normally the conversations I have with my parents consist of 'good morning.' that's if i actually see them, or there's 'have you done your homework or have you studied yet?' then the final one is 'good night.' thats also if i see them at night.
My relationship with my parents is terrible.
"Are you going to say anything Chloe?" Dean interrupts my thoughts.
Mentally shaking my head and look at him. His facial expression breaks my heart. He's confused, worried, upset and most of all angry. I fully understand why he's feeling all of them at once.
"Dean... I was---" I was just about to explain myself until I heard my name being called from across the room.
"Miss Chloe Stevens?" A nurse is stood by the doorway that leads to all of the doctors offices, she's folding a file to her chest which must contain all of my details and past doctors notes.
Looking at Dean, i sigh and stand up. "That's me." I then start to make my way towards the nurse.
I didn't realise Dean was following me until the nurse showed me (and apparently Dean as well) in the room.
Placing my file onto the doctors desk the nurse looks at me and Dean. "The doctor will be with you in a moment." She gives me a reassuring smile and leaves the room.
Now it's just me and Dean. Alone.
I'm sat on the little bed that's in the doctors office because I know how these appointments go, i've seen them on television programmes and i've read these type of books before.
Dean takes the seat that's closest to me, he keeps his eyes on me, never leaving me.
Swinging my legs, i look down at my hands in my lap.
He clears his throat. Which signals to me that he's going to ask me a question. "How long have you known Chloe?" Fortunately, he's calmed down now, I think he knows how nervous I am so instead of shouting at me he just talks to me like he normally does. Calm and collected
I suddenly tense up, this isnt how I wanted to tell him, or how I wanted to talk about it. "I've known for about a week... well, I found out a week ago."
"Is it.... is it mine?" That's the question I've been waiting for.
"Yes."
"Are you sure?"
I frown. "Of course I'm sure, you're the only person I've had sex with."
Nodding his head slowly he slowly leans forward, running his fingers through his hair. "Why didn't you tell me sooner Chloe?"
Oh no, I can feel the tears in my eyes, how will I tell him that I was scared? Scared of how he would react to the situation. Or that he's demand I have an abortion and never talk to him again?
"I... I.. was.. going to tell you at some point, but-but I was scared."
Dean puts his head in his hand and sighs. "This is so messed up, Chloe, I'm so sorry"
I lean towards him and gently lay a hand on his shoulder giving him a reassuring squeeze. "Dean it's okay, it's fine. I've kind of accepted it."
Dean looks up at me, looking into my eyes. "So you're keeping it?"
"Yes Dean, I am, I'm against abortion and don't even mention adoption."
We didnt have time to say anything else or talk about this baby. The doctor came in and asked me plenty of personal questions about me and my body.
Yes, I was very embarrassed with Dean in the room but there was nothing I could do, couldn't ask him to leave, it was too late for that plus he is also the baby's daddy. I guess i just wish he hadn't of come along at all, things would be a lot less tense and more relaxed.
When was your last period?
How long have you been sexually active?
When was it the last time you got intimate?
Did you use protection?
Hang on, did i actually hear him right? "Did I use protection?" Well, that's a stupid question. Of course we didn't, or else i wouldn't be here for the reason I'm here.
Doctor's these days.
But did he really need to ask me these questions in front of the guy I've been secretly crushing on since he moved here?
Talk about embarrassment!
