Things I Wanted to say but didn't

What I wish I could tell my mom

I wish i could tell her how I panic every about every little thing that comes my way too fast,  how I'm so mentally exhausted that I can't get anything done throughout the day, how I lie awake every night worrying about the things I should have done and my future responsibilities, how the thought of school terrifies me,  how I can only have two hours of the day to not worry, how I hate myself because I struggle,  how every now and then I just don't feel anything at all and it honestly terrifies me.