You're in my head and my heart
I hate that you're not reality that you're not really here or even that you exist
When I'm sad and can't handle life and I'm so close to just ending it all you're in my head, my first thought in that moment and always my first thought, when I wake up or when I go to sleep you're the first and last thing I think of because I thought it would help me and that the world in my head would help me trying to survive another day or stop crying all the time or just forgetting the thought were I really stand in life
But you're not real the world is not real I keep telling myself I'm in and my fake happiness isn't even real
And I keep telling myself I'm ok I'm ok and you in my mind say hey you're alright you're gonna be alright and maybe I worked in the beginning but not anymore because I'm always answering you you're not here you're not real you're not in my life you don't even exist in my life you never will be and I have based my life and my happiness on you and you're not even real
But so is my happiness and my life
I have nothing and no one cuz you keep telling me you're ok you know this is going to mess you up and I listen to you and I think I'm not alone cuz you're there and even writing this you're in my mind and that fake world is telling me that I'm chilling on a bed and you ask me what I'm doing
I'm not there you're not there the world I wanna live in isn't there and the happiness and the no stressful times aren't there either
But because you tell me what to do and I listen I have nothing and no one left and I'm not living in my head dream world I'm living in my nightmare
"Stop writing this"
"What are you doing "
"Come on now you're kidding"
"Why you writing this"
"What's wrong with you"
"Why are you doing this I'm here you can here me"
"If I wouldn't be real why am I talking to you"
"
"Get out of my head"
"Get out of my HEAD"
"GET OUT OF MY HEAD"
GET OUT OF MY HEAD
GET OUT!!
get out,get out please get out I don't wanna do this please get out
"
"but I'm here?"
You are a dream that can't come true ever
