The Written Emotions

Mad World

I've laughed with you.
I've laid with you.
I've felt your heartbeat against my chest; heard it's rhythm in my ear.

Lips so soft and gentle, their caress makes my heart soar and my stomach flutter.
My eyes get lost in the depth of yours while my hands get swallowed by your hold on them.
It's serenity and it's utterly beautiful.

Alas, hold your breath and keep quiet, for we are not done here.

I've screamed over you.
I've cried over you.
I've spent oh so much on you...

Time

Energy

Emotion

Money

L o v e.

Yet
Where does this leave me?

A l o n e.

Always alone.

Heart hurting desperately for you to see what you're too afraid to see.
Heart aching for you not to push me away.
Heart yearning for your love, touch, embrace, kiss.

"I want you."

And I wanted you to mean it.
But
We don't always get what we want.

"I'm sorry I hurt you."
Sorry enough to stop this nonsense and commit?
Commit to what you know would be splendorous, wonderful, amazing, prosperous.

"It's unfair to you."
Didn't mummy ever tell you, life's not fair?
Nothing is ever fair, darling.

But in you, I find peace in this.

In you, I find life.
I find happiness.

I find joy.
Hope.
Kindness.

Laughter.
Light.

L o v e.

Please don't let me go.
For the darkness will return.

Please do not let me go.

Not out of fear, oh please, my love not from fear.

For if you do this

I fear: I may never get you back.

And the thought of losing you foever

Is more troublesome than Death.