Sekaiichi Hatsukoi - OMEGA VERSE MPREG- Anything For Him

Chapter Eight: Denial

Been staring at that test for what seems like hours now, my thoughts have turned into white noise dominated by the slow ticks of the clock. Could you imagine, me a single parent? In a brand-new school where no one knows my struggles, the thought of it makes my anxiety go through the roof. I Use all of my strength, which isn't much to pull myself up to turn the shower on I wait till it gets hot and pull myself in and sit. Now that I think about it I haven't seen nao in days, haven't contacted my parents or an-chan I wonder what they must think of me, I hope they forgive my selfish actions during my grieving time. I swish my hands in the half-way filled up tub, laying back sliding myself under water and turning the water off with my toes and I can barely reach, I accidentally turned the cold water on briefly. I shut my eyes in search for peace and memories play like a movie in my head I remember how takano would make fun of My short legs, When I'd make dinner and had to call him to reach things for me he'd always hit my on my head as he handed things to me, but he had the sweetest smile.. Or when he'd want sex before school and I'd try to run into the bathroom he'd catch me and whisper “not with those short legs in my ear with his raspy morning voice “takano.. I need to take a shower first..” “Only when you can out run me” and he'd princess carry me back to his bed. I wonder how long it will take me to forget these deeply ingrained memories.. My eyes slowly open and my hands trace my stomach in hopes that this is just sickness. Suddenly I hear a knock on the door. “Ritsu? Hey it's nao your roommate came and got me.., I'm coming in.” It briefly turned to silence like he was waiting for me to refuse him but I have no energy to even bother. The door knob rattles and the door slowly opens but only a small crack “ritsu?” Nao looks around for me worried like he was expecting the worst, my eyes slowly pan over to him and I push myself up enough so my mouth is no longer under water “yes?” “Uh, well, your roommate seemed worried and I came to check on you” nao steps in shuts the door behind him and starts walking, “and also your mom and da-” nao steps on my unused pregnancy test, looking down his eyes have almost as much fear in them as mine had, he looks up to me "Ritsu.. Are you.. Have you..” I push myself up, so I'm sitting straight up. “No, I haven't taken one but I AM not pregnant, I'm just sick everything will be better soon..” I swish my hands over my stomach. “You don't sound to sure.. This isn't a game, you can't be in denial ritsu this is real life, a REAL human child you can't play with a life like that you don't know what you could be doing to harm the baby. Not knowing won't make it disappear it will make it more real.” I don't look back up at him, What does he know? He'll never know what it's like to be in my shoes. He's only ever looked at me and his past mates with lust. But what about love? Judging me with how I handle things what a joke! I thought he was my friend. “Nao, What exactly will knowing do for me, except make me live in fear for what others will say, and being in a foreign country, at a new school, having to prepare to be a parent.. I can't handle that right now.” “Being in denial ritsu.. isn't going to stop, those things are fact and will happen anyway, at least if you know we can make plans to schedule an abortion.” A sharp pain shoots through my heart, abortion? If it's true.. This is mine and takanos child something we made.. Together.. And innocent life that never asked to be here. How could I betray my child? Not even give them a chance to see me, or their father. Tears start to well up and nao cautiously walks over and lays his hand on my  shoulder “ritsu, do you understand now? This isn't a game and it's real you have to know, at least know.” I shrug his hand off me, “how dare you suggest I kill my baby, What kind of person are you?” My voice cracked as I try to hold back full on tears. “Well ritsu at least take it, I'll give you some time” he gets up and walks over to the test picks it up and turns around, he hands it to me “good luck.” He walks out and shuts the door, as mad as I am at him the sound of footsteps never made me feel so lonely. I look down at the test “Well I guess I have no more time to waste.” I stand up and walk to the toilet and take the test and put in on the counter and sit on the toilet, I put my head in my hands and my thoughts won't stop running the test said ten minutes till I get results. How can minutes feel like years?
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NOTE
hey so uh I'll be updating way more frequently I thought no one had interest in this story so I'll start again but it's going to be a long one so I hope you stay!☆