Elements Fifth harmony/you/Camila Cabello

chapter 9

Y/n POV

*Mentions of self-harm*

It has been weeks since I found the book. Apparently only I can feel pain since i'm the only one that knows and trust me I've been feeling pain. I've been sad and sometimes I cut myself. I do it to take my pain away.

The girls have been hanging out with me less and less and it makes it hurt worse :(

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I just got off the phone with Camila and once again they can't hang out today. 

*Warning self-harm* 

I went to the bathroom and pulled out the hidden razor.

One for being stupid

One for being ugly

One for being fat

One for being a waste of time

And one for not being good enough for the girls

*End of warning*

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Knock Knock.

Who is that? I wiped up the blood and bandaged my arm and put on a long sleeve shirt.

I went downstairs and opened the door and to my surprise it was the girls. They were standing in front of me smiling so I smiled to.

"W-what are you girls doing h-here?" I asked. "Is it wrong to want to surprise our girlfriend?" Ally said playfully. I shook my head and all of a sudden I felt like I had to throw up.

I ran to the bathroom as fast as I could and closed and locked the door and threw up.

I heard footsteps running up the stairs to where I was. I stood up and washed my face and brushed my teeth. I put on a smile and opened the door.

The girls had concerned faces and when they saw me smiling their looks turned confused.

"I know what you're thinking but don't worry i'm fine!" I said. I walked away when someone grabbed my arm. 

A sob left my mouth from the pain and the girls looked between me and my arm with wide eyes.

"P-please tell me you didn't?" Dinah said. I just started crying and ran to my room. 

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Someone opened the door and walked in. It was Lauren. "Can I see your arm?" She asked softly. I showed her my arm and she rolled up my sleeve and gasped. All she said was "Why?"

I stood up and said "I have to tell you and the girls something!" She just nodded. I went under my bed and took out the book and went downstairs.

I sat on the opposite couch from the girls and went turned the pages to the right page and handed it to the girls.

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*2 days later*

The girls took the whole soulmate thing great they did not reject me :)

I also guess what! I'M FUCKING PREGNANT! THE GIRLS FORGOT FUCKING CONDOMS AND NOW I'M GONNA BE A MAMA. I'M NOT READY AND THE OTHERS PROBABLY AREN'T READY DUFUQ! HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THIS! *Sigh*. I don't even know what to tell the girls. 

And great i'm now crying. Well I think I should go to the doctor.

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I'm at the doctors and the doctor asked me questions then left. She came back and said i'm having twins. 

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I'm 2 months pregnant and Baby A is Dinah and Lauren's and baby B is Normani, Ally, and Camila's.  We are gooing to be one happy family. I hope. But i'm actually not going to tell the girls yet because i'm afraid.

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I'm 5 months pregnant and I've been hiding the baby bump and the baby bump is big but not to big that I can't hide it.

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The girls are about to come over and my hormones are crazy right now. I asked them to get pickles and chocolate and I think THEY think that i'm on my period but yeah...

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The girls and I are sitting in my bedroom watching movies and all this pregnancy I haven't hugged or cuddled the girls and I think they are getting suspicious. 

Camila scooted closer to me and was about to put her head on my stomach but before she could I said "I have to use the bathroom!" I got up and went to the bathroom.

I went back to the room and Camila was crying. "Babe whats wrong?" I questioned "Can I at least get one hug please it will make me feel better!" She said. I just stood there not knowing what to do.

"Uh...I...I...Uh...I can't." I said "Why!" She said. "I...I...I...Um...I am sick...Yeah i'm sick!" I responded. "BULLSHIT Y/N WHY WON'T YOU HUG US OR CUDDLE US ANYMORE WHAT IS SO WRONG THAT YOU WON'T EVEN HUG YOUR GIRLFRIENDS WE FUCKING LOVE YOU AND YOU WON'T EVEN HUG US!" Ally screamed which I was shocked me and the other girls. 

Tears filled my eyes and I glared at them all through my tears and I walked to the kitchen and got the pickles and chocolate that they got me. I started eating them and the girls walked into the kitchen and Normani said "You act like you are pregnant!" 

"THAT'S BECAUSE I FUCKING AM PREGNANT!" I screamed then walked to the living room and sat down with my food. The girls walked into the living room with wide eyes and Dinah said "Are you telling the truth!" 

I nodded and lifted up my shirt and the girls gasped and Lauren said "Why did't you tell us?"

And I said...

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