-
The heat spreads through my fingertips now,
Where it was once cold and bleeding.
I manage to smile a lot now,
When I was once always crying.
And this happiness and warmth,
Oh how it fills me with sunshine;
With sunshine and dread.
So I never let happiness get into my head
Because for every happy moment,
Life gives me a thousand sad ones.
Makes me wonder if the happy memories
Can stop me from drowning in the gloom.
Can it stop the demons crowding in my room?
Oh I hate being happy
Because afterwards, I'll be sad.
Feels like it's a limited supply
Of that and of hope
But there's no way it will last.
And just like everytime in the past,
Happiness gives me hope
In a sense that feels like life is playing me,
Baiting me,
Only to take it away,
Only to break me.
I don't want to be happy anymore.
Can I just be sad forever?
-
YOU ARE READING
「 poems 」
PoetryWhat's in here? Oh man, I bet you could never guess it unless you read it. Not like it's in the title or something, oh noes. or Poems I write when I just feel like it. (Warnings: Swear words, angst, and vast amounts of sadness.)
