5 270400 seconds together

3. The Conflict

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     A month flew by in a blink of an eye as in what many people would say, happy times passes by faster than you would want it to last. It is cruel to say this but it goes the same for the exact opposite of this situation. I would say that our first month together has made my heart flutter like mad whilst it wasn't all that smooth either. "Let it be a rough beginning as things will get better, bit by bit, after all". That thought kept running through my mind, just to help me calm myself down. Just so that I don't freak out so much over tiny little problems.

"Problems? What is it? Is it edible? Well.... mentally, it is a yes but not physically." I mumbled to myself. I sighed deeply, lost in my own thoughts, once again. How frustrating....

     Nothing really happened during our first month together, truthfully. It was just me. I was bothered by the fact that some people still 'ship' my boyfriend with his ex-crush. I've never blamed him for it. He was helpless about it either and all he could do was to comfort and convince me that all of the gossips about him and his ex-crush would fade away after everyone acknowledges our relationship. I blindly accepted his words of comfort without knowing what was really running through his mind. There's a sentence that I would like quote from a short story I've read,'Curiosity was just an itch and I simply just want to scratch it'. I've been super bothered about my own thoughts lately that I texted my boyfriend, asking him was I just a replacement for his ex-crush. I anxiously waited for his reply and as obvious as it is, he said no and he kept asking me to stop worrying about it. I trusted him.

     Now that my curiosity about it has disappeared, I felt an inner peace in me. I can't run away from the fact that I am very glued to my boyfriend. One of the Friday, we went out to have lunch with our friends and I sat beside him even though I had some of my good friends there. I never realised how selfish I was to only think about my own feelings. One of our friends were late and most of us were almost finished with our meals, ready to leave for tuition. It was just then my boyfriend told me to leave with the rest first as he said he would wait for the rest to finish and go together with them. Jealousy begin to take over my entire emotion. I left without a word, feeling disappointed. Filled with tears, I sat at the front passenger seat of the cab to hide my sadness from my friends.

     My boyfriend did not realise that I was disappointed with him until I did not reply his message for some time. He knew what was wrong and he tried to explained the situation to me. I tried to understand him but I failed to do so as I was tied down by my stupid insecurities. I kept arguing that he should have put himself in my shoes before doing anything just so that we don't hurt each other in the mere future but..... it was impossible. He wasn't the type to express himself to me so I never knew if I had ever actually made him mad or disappointed. I would love to talk out about our problems we had with each other but that is probably not the case for him.  Little did we know that we always let these problem slide away and become happy for a moment again which eventually led us to misunderstandings.