Connection ( X factor)

The call

9 months later...

After my performance at the X factor final, I gained quite a few more fans and my Instagram followers welllll got bigger. Plus!! Other than that though everything's been pretty much the same. Concerts, interviews, interviews, concerts, meet and greets and more interviews. Fun! Every once in a while I do go to the studio though. I'm working on a few songs. I haven't even announced I'm starting an album but I have started writing a few songs for one. I've got quite a few people that are still on my list of collaborations but I need to figure out which ones I want on my album. This is my second one now. With my first one I was having fun and experimenting but I was also concentrating on making hits to become known. I've already got an audience now so now I can just concentrate on soul.

I stared at my notebook lay down on my bed sidewards. I actually had some time off today but instead of resting like a normal person I decided to use my time to write more songs. Eh. It wasn't necessarily work. I might not even end up using this song. Just a way to get my emotions out. I've been kinda depressed lately. I feel trapped. There's so many rules and everything's just constantly the same. Plus my private life is being destroyed by my public life. Losing friends I've had for years because of jealousy or saying I'm 'getting cocky' or just using me. I'm not a very tough person. I break easily. I can hide my emotions but I can't push them away. I need release. And for me music is just that.

I snapped back in to reality when I heard my phone ring. Ugh. I better not have to do anything. I'm in my pyjamas and everything. I groaned as I reached over and grabbed my phone. Tom. My manager. I answered the call bringing the phone to my ear.

T-Tom
Z-Zoe

T-hey Zoe how ya doing?
Z-hey um yeah I'm fine
T-great well listen I've got quite a big thing here
Z-go on
T-you remember when you performed at X factor?
Z-yeah
T-well about a week ago Simon Crowell rang me
Z-really,what for?
T-he wants to see if you'd be interested in being a judge for season 3
Z-wait...what?
T-yeah I know
Z-wait...ok so why did it take you a week to tell me this?
T-we had to make sure you'd be able to do it or if we'd already planned something big at that time
Z-you were considering saying no?
T-well yes
Z-you're crazy
T-so is that a yes to season 3?
Z-well duh
T-great I'll get back to you on it tomorrow
Z-ok bye
T-see ya

I let my phone drop out of my hand and fall on to the bed. I picked up my pillow bringing it closer to my face and screaming in to it. After a good minute, I stopped screaming and put the pillow back. I lay on my back staring up at the ceiling. I'm going to be on one of the biggest shows ever. I'll be on the same panel as the Simon Cowell. He may be a jerk but he's big, like really big. And this'll be...something new. I know even the show will probably turn in to routine eventually but it's some progress.

I picked my phone back up and looked at the time. 11:30

I should probably get to sleep or else I'll be falling asleep tomorrow. I set my alarm and snuggled up under my quilt and drifted up in to a peaceful sleep.

This is short and terrible but it's just a fill in. Next chapter will be better...hopefully.

Jazzy xoxo