Nobody will ever understand my standing. Not one soul will understand what it is to become numb after feeling everything. all the butterflies fluttering in you're stomach. after feeling the heat on your cheeks everytime he said something. Or the way i felt perfectly safe in him. Now he is gone my soulmate my companion. The one that had put a bond on my finger the day i graduated gone forever. He became ashes that were now spread in the ocean. With him he took my sanity and my emotions with him he took everything he took my heart with him, and now not only did he become ashes but i also became ashes with him.
Chapter one
The familiar sound of the ringing from my alarm clock couldnt wake me up for this. I wasnt ready to go there 3 months have past since he left. The car accident played in my head everytime i closed my eyes. How our car had made turn after turn not because of a human error but because of the axels of the car had locked when we were going 65 mph. i replayed the way. i had dragged him out of the car. how his head on my lap, looking at his beautiful emerald eyes closing aslowly and how i was looking at him as life being drained from his body. my amazing Jason. This is why no person would understand what i felt he had been my partner for years understood every expect of me he knew me so well. Now im not the same oim not me. i was put on sleeping pills and anxiety pills, and depression pills. They just numb me numb my feeling and numb everything i have been numb ever since i woke up from that coma and found out he didnt exist anymore. That i was no longer to see those emerald eyes every morning watching me at a distance from the filling parking lot of the northern valley highschool. that he would no longer knock at my window waiting for me to sneak out. The craziest moments of my life i had lived them with him. ''Sofiana wake up already you're gonna be late." That was my call to get of my bed and go out there to a world that didnt make sense anymore. I put on a pair of washed out blue jeans, a black tank top, black converse, and his red and blue arepostale sweater on top. I guess this was my first day of college I just turned 18. We were suppose to go to this college together walk in together and achieve our goals.Toghether but i guess its only me now.
''Sofia did you eat you're breakfast.''
''yes mom i did, can i go now.''
''yes sweetheart, but please be careful ok.''
''alright love you.'' she hugged me tightly and kissed me on the forehead. i walked out i had 30 minutes to be there. the colege was close to my house so i walked it well if a mile is close. it actually is. I walked past the huge corridor doors schedule in hand my backbag on my back. With confidence no i dont thinks so. But for him i was going to do everything as if he was still here. As if he was the one pushing me to do better.
''Nice of you to join us miss....."
"sofia just sofia.''
''alright miss sofia please sit down where ever you would like too.'' first class on the schedule freedom writting sound like you are aloud to write what ever you want but really are'nt. the day went by preety quickly i guess college isnt really that bad. Back to my cave.
Author's note: new story for all you beautiful people still working on the other one but im liking where this is going comment, and vote beautiful people. leaving you with just a little preview and bite for this new story im working on enjoy. loves :)
