Sander sides one shots

Prinxiety: Calm

Warning: contains panic attacks/ self harm. Skip if you dont like

Anxiety (Virgil) pov:

I was completely done. Nobody ever listens, talks, or even recognizes me. Im different, im hideous, im a moster.
I can't take it anymore, all I do is hurt people. For once, I want to be the one who helps thomas.

//flashback//

Thomas is having an panic attack."why can't you do anything right anxiety, ughh. Your always the reason we have a promblem." Why won't they listen? " it's not my fault!."

They never believe me. " Yes it is Anxiety, it always is."

I start crying. "NO IT'S NOT!" I yell as I run to my room.

// End of flashback//

Just as I suspected no one came to my room. No one came to help. To talk. They never do, is the one thing I repeated in my head.

They never do, they never will.

They never, do they never will

They never do, they never will

At this point I was curled in a ball in the corner repeating that. I didn't want to keep thinking this. I wanted it to all go away. So that's what I did. I took out my blade.

"One". For all the times you looked in the mirror and regreted it. "Two." For thinking they would help. At the last cut I made on my wrist I screamed because it went to deep. Someone knocked on the door and I started to panic.

I couldn't breathe. I couldn't talk. I couldn't move."Anxiety? What's going on I heard screams. Im coming in." It was princey (roman) he realized I was panicking and immediately went to calm me. After a few minutes of him calming me I started crying. One of my tears fell on my deepest cut and I screamed. Prince was confused for a moment then looked and saw my cuts. As soon as he saw them I could see the tears form in his eyes.

He rushed to go get the first aid kit. He put some kind of liquid and ointment on my cuts. I hissed at how it burned. The cuts were now covered and treated. "Why?" Was all prince said as he was on the verge of tears.

"You and the others never listen to me or at least recognize me, prince. I know why too. Im hideous, im ugly, im not one of you. I want to help princey, I really do, but you don't understand. Whatever problems I have, so does thomas." I would've kept going but the tears were just raging to get out.

"Virgil..." My eyes widened, he almost NEVER calls me Virgil. " if I knew what was going on I wouldn't have said all those things to you. Im so sorry." I was about to reply when he pressed his lips against mine.

I tensed and didn't do anything, out of shock. As soon as prince realized I wasn't kissing back, he parted with me.   "I.. I'm sorry." And with that he left.

Assuming he went to his room, five minutes later I knocked on his door. There was no reply. Im not those type of people who are patient so I just walked in. Prince was just sitting watching a disney movie. As soon as he saw me he paused it.

"Im sorry for kissing you, ok? Can we leave it at that please?" What if I don't want to leave it at that." I replied. He turned to look at me and said "huh?" Instead of responding I walked over to him, sat on his lap and kissed him. When we pulled apart I said "Now do you get it?" He rolled his eyes in response and pulled me In for another long kiss.

Just then the door bust open and we immediately pulled apart. "Roman! we can't find virg- oh."
"WE CAN EXPLAIN" we both yelled at the same time and blushed.