☁Passing November-Merrikat☁

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☁my father always made us eat soup with wooden forks when we were naughty that way we would get splinters on our tongue☁
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   Today is the day I finally understood why the legend Billie Joe Armstrong wrote 'wake me up when September ends' the day I finally understood what numbness was.
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   The sound of clicking pens scrabbling down answers and the clock ticking away were the only things that could be heard in the room. Miss Watson  decided to give us a test we didn't even know or have time to prepare for, I say 'we'  because Jaime literally had a panic attack and ran out as soon as we saw on the board that we'd be doing a test. So far I had done most of the questions in just 10 minutes, mainly because I was good at biology, and Jaime still hadn't come back yet. Sighing when I answer the last question with 30 minutes left I pull out my phone texting Jaime to see if he is okay. He soon replies that he is skipping out on the rest of the day I go to the group chat.

Z- hey who's coming to lunch, himes is skipping. :)

A- Prolly
J- ^
R- ^^
M- yee
T- I'm not even here.
V- Im w/ Jaime
KMcG- Matty and the rest have band prac all day again and Jake is being a bitch as always.
JG- tf I am
G- ^^^^^^^ w/ Justin tho
JL- t(͡° ͜ʖ ͡° t)
JH- tf jesse
J- dont even ask cashby there prolly fucking

    I laugh at jacks text and tuck my phone away getting ready to go to lunch with these losers I call friends.

   Seeing as all of the gang who said they would be here I quickly run over behind jack and hug his chest. He let's a hi pitched squeal until realising it was me. The rest of the group laugh, Gabe's being the most obnoxious out of the group. The soft laughter dies down a bit when I lift jack up and sit where his place original was and sit him on my lap.

"So are you sure your not in a relationship?" Mike asks.

"Mate no were just oldly close friends," jack immediately replies, which the statement is true but the subject always makes me more shy. I snuggle and lean my head to the back of his neck.

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   After catching a free ride home  from Cory, 'because they have band practise and its Matty's turn to get the amps and knowing him he'd forget.'

   Thanking him I get out of the truck(is that what you call them in america, cause I call em Ute's) and head up the grave drive way towards the door. Pulling in open I set my bag on the bag rack just beside the garage door. Walking into the living room the only thing I see is distraught. My mother crying into one hand while on the phone. I sit on the navy velvet couch beside her and rap my arms around her shoulders comforting her. "Ma, what's wrong, why are you crying?" I whisper to her.

   "It-its your father, he he is in the hospital. I just got the- the call. He- he got in a car crash by a- a drunk driver. We, we need to go now." She sobs out into my lap leaving me numb from what she just said. I just stroke her hair to comfort her the best I can before I stand us up pulling her into a hug. Dragging her along to the car to drive her to the hospital. "Zack, please say something," she pleads knowing I have a tendency to shut down and bottle up feelings but I only respond with shaking my head with a stray tear drifting down.
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   Sitting in a hospital chair for hours is one of the most painful things you can physically and emotionally do. Unless your like me at the moment. Numb. Numb from the shock. Numb from the cool air that radiates from the air-conditioning. Numb from knowing that death works here before retuning to his house, the graves. Numb know that 80% of people will die here or a place like this. Numb from all emotions collapsing. Numb from time.

   A voice pulls me out of my thoughts,still numb though, "Here for Merrick, Mark Merrick?" My head instantly pops up to see a nurse. I quickly wake up my mother and follow the nurse to the room taking note of the number 16 on the door. The nurse stops at the door and turns around. " I'm just warning you before you enter that he was close. We were lucky enough to save him but, but he is in a coma and had fallen into cardiac arrest just before surgery."

I simply just mid my head before walking in. My mother rushes to the side of her loved one gripping his hand and sliding on his wedding band, placed on the side table after been taken off for surgery or when he fell into cardiac arrest, on his left ring finger.

I slide down the door and bundle up on the floor playing with the bottom hem of his shirt. Mum now passed out with exhaustion leaning on his chest. I stare out of the window for a bit before picking my mum up and placing her in the chair beside curled up. I place a kiss on both of there foreheads before slowly walking out of the doors to the car park. Slamming the door shut in my car I burst out in tears leaning on the steering wheel. After sniffling out sobs that should normally last about 10 years worth of sadness I feel numb and drained.
Weak from emotion I drive to the nearest recognisable house, Jaime's.

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Yeah slow updates but first chapter whatcha think?, also I need a cover and a few moodboards.