Reaching Out For You (But I Shouldn't)

The Beginning

Yoongi was never considered an extrovert.

Nor an introvert.

He was considered nothing at all, really.

Ever since he was a little boy, he was always considered the outcast; skin that was always incredibly pale, no matter how long he sat out in the sun, permanent droopy eyes that seemed to scare even the adults away, and his refusal of communication. No matter how his parents or adults bribed him to speak, be it with candy in incredibly large quantities, or the newest model of a toy at the time, Yoongi never uttered a word.

After Yoongi passed the age of 6 without speaking, his parents instantly assumed he was a mute child. To counteract this, his mother dragged him off to sign language classes to express how he felt in signals, while his father dragged him to therapy, expecting something to have gone terribly wrong with their perfect only child. After the attempts failed with no response coming out of Yoongi, they proceeded to lose interest in their son as a new addition to the family came with their extremely busy work lives.

He truly was alone in the world once he was 7 years old.

Paper seemed to become his only friend as he grew up, writing ideas and words he heard in his house, drawing pictures of his nanny who came to take care of him and his brother while his parents were out, and fantasizing about how he would amaze everyone when he finally found his voice. But every day, he'd watch his mother and father fight in front of his own eyes, tearing his drawings to shreds to get some reaction out of their 'retarded' son, but ultimately ending with his mother slapping Yoongi in the face and sending him to his room. He merely shrugged off the stares he got when he entered his class with a big blue bruise forming on his cheek the next morning.

He gave up drawing a year later.

School, however, was no better than his house. For 9 years, the jocks bullied him poor boy for being so pale and scrawnier than the rest of the boys, the popular crowd referred to him as "GiGi" for being so feminine looking, the outcasts of the school refused to be anywhere near him, and all of these incidents lead to where he was today. A highschool dropout at 17, wandering through the streets at 1 in the morning, looking for a safe place to sleep after being kicked out of his house for dropping out. Learning to take what was forced down his throat, Yoongi began to work harder at his miscellaneous jobs, hoping for extra cash to finally afford his own apartment.

At 23, when he finally got his own apartment, he became well known in the hospital a block away from where he slept. No one except he and the nurses understood, for he was constantly malnourished, fainting in alleyways after work, and he generally enjoyed the nurses company that never got to the topic of why he wouldn't speak. He began to create friends that left him extra blankets and pieces of bread to munch on throughout the day, and they even convinced him to give up his hard earned apartment (it was very difficult to convince him) since he constantly was at the hospital.

He was involved in an incident no later than when he got rid of his apartment with his newly dyed mint green hair, and was admitted to the hospital for a few months. He finally had a home again. But it quickly shattered when a new face entered his room.