(This will be angst so prepare yourselves and plus I'm new to writing angst so don't judge me and remember suicide is NEVER and I mean NEVER the answer because there is always someone who will love you, also there will be a little bit of violence because of blood....so if you're not comfortable with that, then just don't read this, also this doesn't happen in the real life of them it's just an idea...okay...yeah..)
Y/N's POV
As I was walking back home from school, I felt too depressed, more depressed than I usually was. My brothers don't know that I'm depressed and I'd like to keep it that way so that they don't worry too much about me, plus I've been very good at hiding my feelings. I've been depressed for about 2 months now and I feel like I should just end the suffering today....
Yoongi's POV
I was coming up with song ideas in my room when I saw Y/N walk past my room and she didn't look as happy as she usually was and she didn't even bother to say hi to me like she usually would. I suddenly felt a bad vibe but I just chose to ignore it......
Y/N's POV
I let my self fall on my bed and that caused me to shoot back up and land on the floor. I didn't mind being here considering people at school now, always push me on the ground telling me to lay there. My life sucks....honestly.....I just wanna die....that'll make me happy.....my brothers tell me to do what I want that will make me happy....death is happiness to me, life for me, is just negative and depressing and I'm tired of feeling like crap everyday. Like someone that's just used for favours and that's it. Sure, my brothers are here for me but no one in the world is gonna change how I feel....not even them nor any of my closest friends. I dashed to the bathroom and took out the razor I had bought at the drugstore a few days ago. I wanted to do it already but I kept on crying and I couldn't do it. So, I decided to sit in the bathtub and fill it with freezing cold water, my tears could mix with the water. I got in the tub and honestly I wasn't cold, I couldn't feel anything, because after a few moments of just sitting in the tub, I slit my throat.
Jin's POV
I finished setting the table for dinner (or supper...there's not a difference though), so I told Taehyung to go and get Y/N. Then, after a few minutes, I heard Taehyung scream.....
Taehyung's POV
Y/N wasn't in her room, so I knocked on the bathroom door, because I had already looked everywhere and the bathroom was the only option.
"Y/N? Are you in there? It's time to eat." I knocked.
But....there was no response. I started knocking even more. Still no answer. So, I had to walk in....and my worst nightmare was happening right in front of my eyes. Y/N was in the tub filled with blood, she was underwater considering I couldn't see her head at the surface, the only thing that was floating was the razor. So, I screamed.
"What happened, Taehyung?" Everyone came and ask, but stopped as they saw the tub.
"I--I...s Y/N in there?" Jungkook asked, tearing up.
"Y-yes.." I responded and then I dashed to the phone.
Yoongi's POV
We were at the hospital waiting to find out Y/N's condition. Everyone was sitting down in the waiting room with expressionless faces, while I was pacing back and forth. I keep on thinking that it's my fault for her suicide.
"It's all my fault.." I said, Hoseok looked at me.
"It's not your fault," he said in a soft, calm voice, but I knew he was about to cry. "Why would you even think so, hyung?" He asked me.
"Because...when I was trying to think of song ideas, she had returned to school already. And she wasn't like her cheerful self because she didn't even say hi nor have a positive vibe around her. So, I made a mistake and....chose to ignore it." I explained and at this point I was already crying.
"Yoongi, this isn't your fault." Jin told me trying to calm me down.
Namjoon's POV
The doctor then approached us, causing everyone to stand up and have their full attention to him.
"How is she?" I immediately asked.
"Well--she...I'm sorry but, she's gone." He told us.
No One's POV
"Well--she...I'm sorry but, she's gone." The doctor told them.
At that moment, the Kim family had lost the most important thing to them in the entire world, Y/N.
And from that moment on they all canceled their music shows, variety shows, fan signs, fan meetings, etc.
Jungkook decided to take a break from college and just stayed in his room the entire time and he only came out if he had to eat (he has a bathroom in his room).
Taehyung wasn't his normal self either because he decided to move back to Daegu, (also BTS were born in their actual hometowns , in this story they were born in their actual hometowns because their parents had to move all the time) forget about his k-idol life. He didn't even bother to say proper goodbyes to his brothers.
Jimin still tried to smile and live his regular life, but whenever someone mentioned Y/N he would drop his smile and then just walk away.
Namjoon moved to a new home somewhere far from the city just to avoid the talk about others talking about suicide. He decided that they all should just take a break from being BTS. He still skyped his brothers but honestly he even thought he was getting depressed.
Hoesok moved to somewhere in Incheon but, he was still cheerful and he would always visit his brothers except for Yoongi and Taehyung because they would always shut him out of their lives. He visited the others though, just to cheer them up. But, in closed doors he never smiled...
Yoongi still blamed himself, so he moved to an apartment and decided to shut his entire life down. He didn't commit suicide but he considered...he couldn't bring himself to do it though.
Jin still lived in the original Kim household with just Jungkook and Jimin because he had to be strong for them. He felt disappointed in himself though, for not knowing about you.
This act happened everyday for 3 years, until they decided to get back together as BTS. Slowly and slowly, they came back to their real selves but, without Y/N, they would never be just like what they were when she was around....never...it would just bring back memories...memories that were too much to handle....
(Okay, that probably sucked but this is the longest thing I've ever written on Wattpad. Anyways, I would really like to know if you guys want me to write anymore angst. I might accept requests but only when this book gets more reads and votes 😉)
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