broken | mina & chaeyoung

broken

sometimes im happy,
sometimes im not.

whenever i see you laugh,
it's too impossible to not
fall in love with you.
especially when i always caught you staring at me,
you end up smiling at me afterwards.

you always knew how shy i am with you
in lectures,
lunch breaks,
dismissals,
or even hangouts.

you always put the effort to
bring up any topic
just to avoid the awkwardness
between us.

its funny how everyday you would surprise me with back hugs and
random kisses on the cheek,

but ever since you knew that i liked you,
you became..
distant.

i thought i had hope.
that night when you just hugged me,
when i said i liked you.

it was just us and the stars
were shining in the cold blue skies.

i thought you'll leave me.
i thought you'll be disgusted.
i thought your hug meant something else;
but it was just a sign of sympathy.

you didn't leave me,
but you became distant.

we are still friends,
but we aren't that close anymore.

tell me, myoui mina.

i thought i was special?
i thought those stares were
only meant for me
but why are they for someone else?

am i not good enough for you?
an i not good like her?

i'm still waiting for a fucking answer.

even you two are together,
im still fucking waiting for you.

im still hoping.

hoping all these broken pieces of me
will get fixed by you.

only you.