true change.

the clicking of pens and footsteps replace the silence. As I sit there in the receptionist office waiting for whatever new's I get on how my mother is doing. Hollaring from the painful injured patients crowd around the room. The reason why I'm here for my mother is because she was diagnosed with cancer three years ago and for the past appointment's the doctor's have said her disease is getting worse. Hearing those heart breaking words made me feel as if there's nothing more, nothing to live for, no reason to live, as I just broke down like shattered glass.

I use to think life is a gift some people didn't get up to my age . people say things happen for there reasons but, this was the MOST UNREASONABLE DEATH TO ME! What reason is there for my mother having to go through pain and death in that boring dull medication , needle filled , hell.

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"you may come in." the nurse said with a quite calm voice. HOW CAN THIS MAN BE CALM IF MY MOTHER HAS CANCER AND MAY HAVE A POSSIBLE CHANCE OF DIEING TODAY!

I walked in the room, silence quickly awoken as I could only hear the electro machine. Mother , mom are you o.k.? I asked with a Worrued tone and expression.

I'm fine sugar. mom said giving a slight hand gesture that appeared so weak it was enough evidence to know she was Iieing. I held her hand and said. "mom, don't dissapear on me." and then my head felt dizzy just from this scene.

So I walked out the room leaving my mom their. And the nurse just staring at me. O.O

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      CHAPTER 2

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Of course I just drove home. seeing my mother in that phase just broke me. Plus my sister should be getting out of school now.

I walked inside the house and locked the door (my sister has her own pair of keys) and dropped the keys on the wooden dresser (my grandma gave to me before she died of old age) as I just flopped on the bed letting gravity just pull me down as I just layed there and thought to myself "why me. why us. why anyone. JUST WHY!" the frustration started kicking in and it started invading my brain like a toxic waste spilted into a lake just flowing everywhere and expanding killing anything , poisining anything in the way.

Sometimes , just ask the man in the moon they say. But , what do I get from a single little request. ends in death tottal opposite of what I really wanted to happen. ugh! I folded my ladybug pillow over my face to heal the scream from finding its way to our neighbors house.

" SIS LOOK WHAT I HA- what's wrong?" asked my sister bursting into my room first with excitement them with concern.

"erm" I said biting my lip. If I tell her she'll never paste herself back to reality and will always show nothing but sadness. I tried thinking of something quick so she couldn't tell I would lie about what I'm gonna tell her. then the thought spoke up as it rushed out of my mouth and I said " he he well um. Derick beat me at alien crushers again hehe and I had to give him twenty bucks!"

Sal (sisters name) just put her hands on her hips as she said " oh that little cheater" and she turned away and zoomed out of sight. that was way to close. gotta keep intact with my actions. even though I know she's gonna find out the truth sometimes. still at a young age and all . but for now I think she must not know before things get out of hand. but I still don't know whether moms down or not. eh find out tomorrow probably.