Before the butthead - Bobby prequel

After my Mother's passing, my Father was the sole bread winner in my family. My Mother died due to her smoking habits resulted in lung cancer. My Father is so busy working that most of the time my Elder Sister was the one taking care of me. My Father is rarely home. Life is certainly tough. My Father manage to put me in Polytechnic, but I don't really care about studying. I didn't expect to be able to go to poly after entering ITE. My sister often scolded me because of my mindset.I don't have much friends in Poly. I can't mix well with them. I feel like I'm in a different world from them except for Jack. Jack is my best friend since I enter poly. He hated studying and life just like me. Is it really that important to get a diploma? I really hate to go home. Everyday I fight with my sister, my house have so many bills and issues. My Sister is so annoying, everyday telling me to study. Going school it's even worst, my classmates are so crazy about getting good GPA, the modules are so hard, life is so bad. But Jack is different, he doesn't care about GPA. We hang out really well and we go arcades together. Jack is a heavy smoker, but I don't smoke. He often offer me to try but I never feel that I need smoking. He would tell me how you will feel good, how you will feel all your problems are gone after smoking. He gave me a packet of cigarettes, but I had never open them. "Eh Bobby, im skipping school today, Since it's so boring. You want to join me? We can do something fun." I know my Sister will be even unhappy if I skip school. I know my Father will be upset. But it's boring without Jack in school, why not just skip with him. We went around to the arcade, Jack even bring me to play darts. He bring me to places that I have never been before. We went into a cafe and finally we sit down to have some drinks. Jack sighs and look at me with a serious face. "Bobby, today it will be the last time we hang out together." The mood sinks, I was surprised. I immediately ask him why. "I am sorry Bobby, my family is migrating to Australia. I just want to spend a full today with my best friend. Don't worry, I'll be leaving next week. If I come back to Singapore we still can meet again or talk online" It really shocks me. I never heard about this from Jack before. I feel happy for Jack that he could migrate and have a new life. A fresh start, but a moment of sorrow I felt in my heart. "Don't worry. You can still contact me online" After Jack's migration. He never contact me again. He never reply my message nor did he read my message. It is so different in class. No one to talk to. Sitting in class alone, sitting in the canteen alone. My secondary school friends are so busy, I felt so lonely. My sister stop talking to me and have a Cold War with me recently after I skip school. I feel so depress. I just wish there was something that can bring me happiness. Something that I will feel good and all the problems is going to go away. I unzip my bag and realize the cigarette pack that Jack gave me is still there. Jack said that this will make all the problems go away. My Dad never like cigarettes. He always said that it's all because of cigarettes that causes Mum's death. My relationship with my sister would worsen if she knows I smokes. But do I really have a choice? My life is already so bad. It wouldn't get any worser from here right? It won't hurt just trying out one stick right?