Eternal Blessing [Haikyuu!!]

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(A/n: Warning!! Self abuse and suicidle thoughts ahead! If you dont like it or bad for your health dont read it, Thank you~)

Fukunaga POV~

I lied on my bed, thinking back to what Taketora asked me at practice yesterday. ''Ne, Fukunaga?'' After spiking a ball Kenma had set for me, I look over to Tora. ''Hm?'' I hummed in response. ''Why dont you ever speak?'' He said, catching Kenma and some other teammates nearby.

'Its been a year and only now do you ask? Pathetic.' Is what I would've said.

Flashbacks from my childhood flashed into my mind. 'You're so weird! Get away from me!' 'Gomen Shohei-kun, my mom said I cant hang out with you anymore...' 'Hey I heard Fukunaga-kun's parents commited suicide, he's probably one of them too...' 'Kowai so' ('Poor him'). Sentence after sentence repeated in my head as I try to speak.

Bearly opening my mouth, I whisper ''Its not of your buisness...'' but of course no one could hear me, not even Kenma and Taketora himself could hear it.

I look over to the clock in my room, '11:43 PM'. ''I better go take a shower,'' I whisper to myself as I walk to the bathroom.

In the bathroom~

I look down to my thighs, 'The cuts better than yesterday.' I thought. While brushing my teeth I look over to the right of the sink to see the razor with dry blood I had used a few days ago... Sunday maybe? Its quite a blur since I had passed out due to blood loss. Fortunetly, it had stopped bleeding at some point the night. A voice creeped into my thoughts 'Just go die! No one wants you here anyways! You just didnt cut deep enough! You're so useless!' The voice said. I quickly swiped the razor of the side of the sink, causing it to hit the door with a slight knock sound. (A/n: ??? Yeah idk either)

After the bath I put on a t-shirt, shorts and quickly fell to sleep.

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