Dear Jenny,
Remember the first time we met?
It was a cold Christmas night. I saw you walking alone on the bridge as the snow fell and danced ever gracefully towards the ground.
I approached you and I noticed something seemed to be bothering you. I asked you if you were okay. You said yes, but I know you weren't.
You felt sad. You felt lonely. You felt lost. You felt empty. You felt numb. You felt hopeless... You wanted to die. And you did.
How did I know that? I saw it in the news that night and I found myself overcome with this sudden, overwhelming feeling of grief that I couldn't explain. At that very moment, it felt as if the very life was sucked out of me. Like my life lost all purpose.
I felt sad. I felt lonely. I felt lost. I felt empty. I felt numb. I felt hopeless. I felt a strong urge to save you. I felt I needed to save you. I felt I had to save you-and I did.
On that night, I went back to before you jumped off the bridge. But that wasn't the first and last time. We tried to get help, but it didn't work. I've seen your lifeless body so many times. I've been crushed and devastated so many times. I've turned back the clock so many times. I've been brought to tears to see you alive again every single time.
I know you're probably wondering what the heck am I talking about. I know you probably think I've lost my mind or that I've gone senile or something, but it's true-I can go back in time, but only within a few hours. (I know, it sucks.) I'm sorry I kept it from you. I'm sorry I never told you before.
Eventually, you felt better. Your outlook changed. You started to smile. You started to hope. You started to see the beauty in life. You started to love.
We fell in love. We got married. We had two lovely children. We did many things together. We saw many places together. We met many people together. We had many memories together. We grew old together. We lived together.
We weren't supposed to be here, you and me, but here we are.
Remember the first time we met? It was the best decision I made in my life. You made me smile. You gave me hope. You showed me beauty. You taught me how to love. You revealed to me the meaning of life.
Thank you, Jenny.
Until next time,
Chris
