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Adhyāya 1

Spring day

March 8, 2017

Everything was white, still covered in the crisp coldness of snow. Winter was still holding on at that part of the town, spring was yet to come.

A cool morning breeze passed making Kim Taehyung regret his decision. He found himself standing in the deserted train station, again. He knew she will never come back again  but his stupid heart dragged him to a station which had long ago stopped its service. He laughed at how pitiful he had become because of her. So he prayed for her to come back so he could tell her how much he hate her. But that was not even possible.

Again looking at the empty railway tracks, he got down and stumbled towards it. Kneeling on the snow covered ground he pressed his ear on the frozen track. The side of his face burnt from the coldness  but he stayed there until it went numb, just hoping for a miracle and a train to come rustling so he could see her again.

"Elephant agi omma, can't you too go with us... How will I live without you and our agi? I will not go. I'll live here with you." An innocent ten years old Taehyung sniffed in front of a girl much younger than him.

"I can't go with you and you still need your omma to put you to sleep so you can't stay here too." She pouted her small pink lips making a point. He seemed to get her point and slowed down his sobs. "So once agi appa becomes big and strong enough to protect me and our agi, I will get permission and come to you."

"Will you come to me?" He innocently asked her. She nodded smiling. "Okay, then I will wait for you and we will have 10-no 20 babies. Promise that you will come in a big train like this."

"I promise." She said and they sealed it with their tiny pinky fingers.

"Yah! Taehyungah come fast the train is leaving." His cousin shouted making him tear up again. Sure he was excited to go to Seoul from a small village in Daegu, but the separation with her made him sad, for she was his nonexistent elephant agi omma.

"Jin hyung I was  just going to say goodbye to her-""Don't say goodbye. Just go and remember our promise." She cut him and turned away. He smiled and counted as he walked away with his cousin. He turned back at ten to look at her but she still had her back faced towards him.

Jerking himself up from the ground he promised it was the last time. All she was an addictive sweet poison. An angel who ruined his life, their life. So he walked away making up his mind to just hate her, as forgetting her meant his death.

...

Jeon Jungkook smirked as he stood in front of a crying girl.

"But oppa, you said you like me."

The Casanova was breaking fifth girl's heart in the week and it was not even half of the week.

"Tsk. Don't call me oppa, I'm not your oppa. I am not interested in you anymore." He spat in annoyance as he walked away leaving  the girl crying on the floor. He wanted to consider spending an hour more with her, but her calling him 'oppa' shook it off. He passionately hated the word.

He walked to a train station nearby and took an empty cabin. He was tired of everything and wanted some time alone, not that he wasn't lonely already. All his hyung were busy fighting and fixing their own misery like he himself. She was the reason of all their misery. She was the reason why they were not together anymore.

He aimlessly stared at the passing scenarios outside the window but he was still busy cursing her inside his mind. He hated her for making him lonely. He hated her for turning him into the playboy he was, who was restlessly trying to find love again. He hated her for the happy memories that haunted him all the time.