How To Save A Life (Larry Stylinson AU)

How To Save A Life

You should listen to Friends by Ed Sheeran and How To Save A Life by The Fray while reading this.

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'Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend. Somewhere along the bitterness'

It's not working anymore, he just can't do it, they suffered long enough, hard enough. Someone needed to put an end to their suffering.

If not by setting them free then how?

He can't keep him locked in his cage of bitterness. That's not even an option. They went through a long, hard way with each other, hand by hand, through all good and bad.

So why would he end it all now?

What about all their silent promises? All the unspoken words? All the love they didn't yet had the pleasure to share? All the happiness that may come at the end?

But here's the problem, their happiness may never come in the end and if it will then when is the end?

Louis feels like he lost his Harry. Like he lost his treasure. Like he lost his home. Like he lost all his purpose in life. Like he lost his lover. Like he lost his sunshine. But most of all, like he lost his friend.

But why would Louis feel like that if Harry is standing right in front of him?

It's been four years now. Four bloody years. 1,460 days. 87,600 hours. 525,6000 minutes. 

When he looks into Harry's eyes he loses all the hope and comfort he once saw in them. He loses himself slowly but surely into his own darkness.

How could he let that thing keep going on when he sees himself and the most important person in his life disappear into the dark far, far away from the once blinding light?

Where no light can reach and no comfort can be found.

He catches Harry's eyes one more time before he decides that he can't let this go on anymore. Not after he sees the hollowness of the beautiful empty green orbs that are staring right into his own blue ones.

Louis closes he's eyes and take a deep breath before he opens them again to the same awful sight "We need to talk" His voice was barely above whisper but one look into Harry's eyes tells him that he had heard him loud and clear as if it was the most ear piercing scream he's ever heard.

They're alone in the room.

Harry walks towards Louis and stands beside him with his hands shaking nervously, understanding what's coming next, eyes not living the floor.

"Sit down Harry" Louis says softly.

He feels bad. Disgusting.

But that's the best thing he can do for Harry. Let him go. Say his last goodbyes. Say his last 'I love you' before he'd put an end to this sick story.

Harry sits down, hands not leaving his lap.

"Relax love" Louis says putting one hand on top of Harry's.

Harry looked up at Louis with sad exhausted eyes "It's just a talk" He tries again with no use.

They both know very well it's not just a talk. 

Harry gives him a small polite smile that doesn't reach his eyes. It doesn't look like he's even trying. It's not like he’s blaming him because really, what's the point anymore?

Louis and Harry seemed to freeze for a moment remembering everything.

All the happy and bad memories that had led to the moment they are in now as one.