My Love. My Life. In highschool.

2

Lunch. After 3 periods.

Pj~Lunch time.

I sit at my table and sigh. The tables loud with only 5 people. I breathe in and out of my mouth, without knowing it, my mind drifted to La-La land. The nerds pained face is my first memory.

I smirk.

First time in a while, no, first time ever, that smirk hurt. Like my body knew instantly what I was smirking about, others who are weaker than ones self in pain and suffering. My body knew that, it was like knifes stabbing me right after being smithed. Hot and burning from the fresh fire.

Hot.

Cold.

At the same time
...

How?
Is this...  Guilt? Pity?

No, I've never felt it, so, how am I supposed to know...  What it feels like?

But, exactly. I don't know. I don't. I never had a reason. But I feel like The nerds a pretty god damn reason.

I hate it.

I hate the guilt. The pity. The both emotionally drained me. I was crowned with sorrow and fear. What if he never forgives me?

Ever?

What the hell am I thinking?!

I shouldn't even consider my emotions right now, along with he has to walk in with Goldie. I think his name was Fresh? Yeah...  That name sounds familiar..

Oh, Fresh Sans. My old buddy. Went off into the AU potrol and was kept under cover or some shit. Though I thought people name children after famous people, to let their kids to fit in, I won't be able to let them. Well, I will, YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN!

Fresh sits next to Alphys. They start talking, and eventually they start looking like their squealing or some damn thing. Holy shit, how energized can the nerd be?

Now I look at him smile, my heart. No scratch that.

My soul melts.

There was a hand infront of my face and I shook my head. I look up and see Skater Girl. Her purple skin looking gooey. I grumble an 'I'm fine' and mumble  some curse words.

I start seeing him laugh. It pains me more how I can hurt him...

NO

No

No

No

No

NO... No... no
....

No

It can't be this way. I will beat him, like BP said to do 'or else' or some threat shit.

I get up and throw my food away, at least the trash. I put the rest of my stuff in my bag and go over to 'the nerd table'. I slammed my hand next to Alphys making her tear up. "hello nerds" I sneer. Fresh waved a bit and looked at his scared friend at how close I am. I smirk and stand. I walk and sit next to Fresh, Goldie glared at me. I put my hands up in defense. "what where you talking about?" I ask harshly. "M-m-manga. A-a-also A-a-a--anime" Alphys stuttered out. "huh. Manga. Anime. Cool" I wack the back of Freshs head and walked away. He continued talking to Alphys even though he was just hit.

Damn. What the hell?

I'm confused...

Ugh. I'm beating myself up to try to understand this nerd, that's interesting becuase I'm breaking rule one of the highschool life..

1. Nerds and jocks do not mix. Nerds stir clear and jocks make it hard.

2. Always mind your business.

3. Nerds never talk back to jocks.

4. Nerds are weaker than jocks. Don't try.

5. Never be gay/lesbain

I disagree on 5 but, you know, life. I am bi, so... 

I feel heartfelt a little to know Fresh was looking at me, when u noticed, I smirked at him, I felt something hot on my cheek bones, his face was bedded with a blue, dark blush.

Cute, no!

No.

No

NO. No. no
...

I'm calm now, so I walk out to the hallway, I secretly motion for Fresh to come to. I walk around a corner. Visibly I see Fresh, who I wrap my arms around his waist. I saw the corner of his cheek was, in fact, blue blushed.

I chuckle and kick his back, he lands with a grunt on the floor. Chained to my emotions I stop. I feel great pain. I feel tears. Fresh tears roll down my cheeks and stain them. When I poked his back I saw it was bleeding. I quickly lifted his shirt and wrapped up his spine, apparently he had wrap in his bag.

I healed to the best of my ability, and picked Fresh up bridal style.
I smile sleepily and sat against the wall. Soon darkness consumed me to the knowingness of deep sleep.

Sorry do the short chapter. I'm tired...  😴