Monster || Sebastian Stan Fanfic

08. So Cold

Hope's P.O.V

It's finally Saturday. I'm supposed to see Sebastian today. I took my time to call him, as I was a bit upset. Besides, I have been working a lot.

I reach out for my phone and I see I have a new text. It's from Jason, a guy I met recently. Jason works as a paralegal in the same firm as I. We have been hanging out a lot lately.

He's not only funny and smart, but also pretty damn attractive. We have much in common, including the part where we both like boys. Besides Lizzie, Jason is my best friend. I've told him pretty much everything about myself, my past and the reasons that led me here.

'Have a great day and tell me all about it. X – J'

I told him about Sebastian. Of course, he knew who Sebastian is. As a matter of fact, Jason helped me to choose the proper outfit for this casual meeting.

I get dressed and look at the time. I start walking to the coffee shop. It's still early, so I sit down outside and wait. And wait. And wait. After an hour, I'm both worried and pissed off, so I call Sebastian.

"Hello", his voice sounds strange.

"Hey... We were supposed to meet for coffee, remember?".

"Yeah. I'm not going".

"What do you mean you're not coming?".

"I don't feel like going. I don't see the point in hanging out with you. Also, I have this hottie sleeping next to me and she's much more appealing than you, Hope", he sounds emotionless.

I hang up before saying anything and I feel a knot in my stomach. I stand up and start to run back home. Once I'm inside the apartment, I can't help but to start crying. I can't stop. It hurts.

I call Jason and he comes right away.

"He said what!?!?", he asks, shocked as I explain him the entire conversation.

"He just... It's like Antoine, all over again...", I say, between sobs. I'm not the kind of woman who cries that easily, but this was a low punch and it brought back some pretty awful memories.

Antoine and I met at Oxford. We shared classes and became friends. Eventually, friendship became love. After two years of dating, he proposed to me. I said 'Yes'. First mistake. I was planning the wedding when I found out he had been cheating on me. He begged for my forgiveness and, as the foolish girl I was, I forgave him. Second mistake. Two weeks before our big day, he broke up with me. He said he had found 'someone much more appealing' than me. The exact same words Sebastian said today. I spent months deeply depressed. I didn't want to go to work, or eat, or even sleep. About a year later, I ran into Antoine. He started apologizing and became a pain in the ass, as he wouldn't stop calling me, asking for another chance. By that time, I had been offered to work here and without a doubt, I agreed. It was the perfect way out. I created this rumor about me going to Alaska for work, and Antoine believed it. Never heard from him again.

"And just like Antoine, he is an asshole", Jason says.

"I just... I don't get it...", I say, shaking my head off.

"You are not the one who fucked things up, Hope. He did. God only knows what the hell is inside his brain. Maybe this is for the best... You gave him one chance and he blew it".

"You are right...", I nod.

"Now, get your ass from that bed and let's go to the mall. We're going to a party tonight and we need to look as hot as we can", he says and extends his hand.

I smile a bit and take it as I stand up from my bed.

(A/N: Recommended song https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uelHwf8o7_U)

I'm somewhat drunk when I walk to the bar. Jason brought me to a really fancy club. He's moving all around the dance floor. I ask for a glass of bourbon when I feel someone standing next to me, I turn my head and anger takes over me.

"Fucking great", I say.

"Long time no see, Hope", Sebastian replies.

"Fuck off", I reply.

"Wow. What's with the rudeness?", he smirks.

And I lose it. I slap him.

"I don't ever want to see your fucking face again. Stay away from me or so God help me..."

"What are you going to do?. Sue me?"

"Fuck you!!", I yell, loud enough for some people to listen. I walk out of the club. I text Jason as I walk back home. This day can't seem to get any worse.

I hear footsteps behind me and I'm already about to snap but it goes all dark.