Burlesque💗

Chapter 4: decisions/ burlesque club

I go to my room and sit on my bed. As I'm sitting there realizing how much of a stupid, clumsy ass shit head I am I think about how many times people have looked at me like I was stupid. All because I'm 19, with no sort of relationship experience or anything! I put my face in my knees. I could feel my eyes water. People didn't go through what I went through...  I look up with tears rolling down my face feeling a weakness building up inside of my body. I wipe my tears away and grab the news paper knowing what I needed to do. I start staying strong and decide to read more about the burlesque club because I'm supposed to go tomorrow night with Annoying Anna.  I'm finally at the last paragraph and I'm shocked at what I'm reading in this paragraph. There is a job open for one lucky girl in the burlesque club to dance in. My eyes light open quickly and it says to look for the owner of the club known as Grayson dolan. Hmm.. I wonder who that could be. I read for the try outs date and it's after tomorrow nights show which ends at 12:00. Wait... what?! Great! I'll have to stay with Annoying Anna for hours then I'll have to stay up super fucking late. KILLLL ME NOW!!!!!! I bang my head against my pillow. I lift my head up realizing something. This could... actually help me be the confident woman I need to be especially in my own skin. I sigh softly and think super hard. Alright... I'm gonna try out! First I need to get rest tho. I quickly go to bed and sleep....

"BEEP BEEP BEEP!" I hear my Annoying ass alarm go off and I punch it to get it to shut up. I look at the time and it's only like 10:30 pm so I got time to see what I'm going to wear tonight. I look in my closet and yikes... my clothes are all t-shirts, a pair of white shorts, Nike sweatpants, and blue jeans. I sigh softly, "looks like I need to go shopping more and atleast care about how I look" I say. I walk out of my apartment and drive off to a mall for a dress. I walk into a lovely dress store. I see pretty flower dresses and pretty pink long dresses. They were so pretty. I usually like church looking dresses because I've been so self conscious lately about even wearing a short dress. I see a working lady and ask her "excuse me mam but do you think this dress would be good for the club tonight?" I hold up a long white dress with butterflies and pretty flowers on it. She looks at me in a "what the crap" face. "Mind if I give you advice hun?" She says. "That would be nice I guess." I say. She takes the dress away from me and hangs it up and takes me to a different store dragging me by my arm. "HEY! Let go!" I say at her trying to pull her hand off my arm. We make it into a store in the mall with a whole bunch of bras and sexually short dresses. "Honey this place is what you would want to go to if your clubbing" she says to me. She walks away quick enough for me to not say anything. I look around scared even to try on a single dress. I then find a dress that I liked but too scared to wear it because of how scared I am of what people will think of my body.

it was so gorgeous! I kept feeling the material with my fingers like it was the last time I would see it. I pulled it down and told myself "No! I
Will not let every bit of my confidence slip away from my life over a dress I am getting this dress and wearing it"! It about knee high and it fit me perfectly. I loved it. Since I don't wear makeup I thought later on around 8:45 I would get a makeover from a professional at the mall in Sephora. Time flies. It's already 8:30 and I'm driving to get my make up done. After my make up was done I take a look in the mirror and I'm shocked at the sight.

i was so shocked at the out look. I really wanted to cry because for once I felt beautiful. I went home and texted Anna around 9:10. She texted back saying "ARE YOU READY?! I'll meet you there at the table in the front that has the number 8 on it". I text her back ok and get my dress on and I take a good look in the mirror and for once I smile looking at myself. I'm even wearing heels and I usually just where Nike shoes and crocs😂. "Alright lets go..." I say to my self. I stop in my tracks and make sure I have my try out clothes ready. I walk out the door and get into my car and drive off. When I make it to the club, as soon as I'm bout to open the door, I hesitate. I sigh. My hand shakes as it's still lifted up for the door but hasn't moved yet. "You can do this"... I say to my self. I walk in and woah. Dark neon lights, alcohol, lots of people, huge stage with set ups, and loud music. (Up at the top is a video, that's the music that the club is playing). I suddenly snap out of it and walk around to find my table. I looked at a table at front that said 8 but there were a lot of people sitting at it and I didn't see Anna at all. I take a deep breath and walk over to the table. For some reason I haven't broken my ankles in these heels..... yet anyway. I walk to the table where there's people doing drugs, smoking pot, and also drinking. They suddenly look up at me. I look over to their left to see Anna sitting beside them on her phone. "Anna?" I say. She looks up at me and smiles. "HEY!!!! Katie!!" She jumps up and hugs me. I look at her and nervously smile. She goes to sit back down but I grab her arm and take her to the bathroom with me. "ANNA! What the hell! Who are those people sitting at our table?!" I ask her. "They wanted to sit with me so I said y-yeah" she says nervously. I face palm and run out of the bathroom when suddenly a man walks on stage with a microphone. "Hey guys how are you doing tonight!?" The man says in the microphone. I look at him closely for a second and wait.... omg THATS THE GUY THAT I ACCIDENTALLY DROVE MY CAR INTO HIS LAWN....