All I wanted.

what now?

May 8, 2012.

 "Dear Ethan, i hope when you read this i will be far away from you, from my family and from that place where i was once happy. Isn't it funny how me, a girl that was unattached and always have problems showing her feelings now is crying while writing this" his heart was feeling like someone was punching it and it hurt so bad, he feel tears rolling down his cheeks "I lose everything that was important for me, most important an angel that will never meet you, I lose you, my heart and my feelings. i know you are not the only one to blame because i have a big responsibility for believing Nathalie but things work out in mysterious ways and maybe we were not made to be, our love was so much for me and for us, I've been in pain since you took a decision and at first i didn't accepted it and took time to realize that you weren't coming back and I have to do my life without you and anything that hold me back. Karma is a bitch and it made me pay for my errors but i guess i will never learn how to stop loving you, have a great life and i hope that if we cross path again we can see each others without regrets, that we do our best be polite to each other for the sake of our families and cousins. But in all honesty I do not see a day in which I can look at you and not feel all this twisted emotions that I feel right now, I didn't know the meaning of love/hate until now, even though I loved you, I hate you with the same intensity. Do not try to find me because I will do my best not to be found, do your life with someone that have an easier life than mine because maybe you deserve happiness"

Ethan was crazy after reading this letter, Isabella have left and that's all he knows after he saw her for the last time in the airport, he broke every object that was in his way, he punch the wall and drink everything that he could possibly get. "She left, she left me, and what happened to ....? Ooh God I am stupid. aaaarrrrrh" Ethan pulls his hair and broke his mirror, in the floor there were glass, bottles, pice of wall, blood and alcohol. "What that fuck man" say Adam walking into his room. "Ethan you can't continue like this, you have read that letter for the past 3 weeks, the girls want to kick your ass so badly that we almost have to tie them to stop them for coming here but this is crazy i don't know if you like to torture yourself but man get over. I know you fell hard because you look at her like if she were the one who put the fucking stars in the sky man" Ethan laughs but it's a sad smile that didn't reach his cheeks. " you know what is the problem Adam, for me she wasn't the one who put the stars in the sky she was the fucking sky, stars and the whole fucking galaxy that illuminate my world. Now you get it, without her is like having a life but not being able to live it" Adam was quite for some minutes thinking about what his cousin just told him "well man, if she is your game over then get up, clean this fucking mess clean yourself and let's make someone better for her go find her and make her understand that you and her are made to be........ don... umm don't say anything but mmm I heard she isn't having a good time ether. Man both of you got coght in situations bigger than each others, you guys were too committed but if thats what you want please do something because I cant take seeing you like this" Ethan get up slowly "I dont deserve her but I will work in me in other to at least be worth another chance with herand I will do everything in my power to get her back, this love isn't going to end here" Ethan walk out of the room with the hope to get some information out of America or Selena, he knew that it will be hard because those two can let me without balls but She is worth all of that and more...