The Diary of the Lost

Entry

April 4
Hey book? I decided to write a memoir of my thoughts due to the growing concerns I have for my life. The uncertainty of, if that same life will continue, is becoming increasingly uncertain. The reason I feel this impending doom is what happened to me recently. I never really thought of myself as a paranoid person, mind you, however, that being said I feel a constant gaze upon me. I never feel safe anymore, no matter where I go, even in my house. This can just be chocked up as stupid delusion in my mind due to fatigue. I honestly dislike the fact of writing in a stupid diary just to release the idiotic qualms of my mind playing tricks on me. Deep down however, I fear as if maybe...possibly my mind is correct and I'm just telling myself what I think I want to hear. Both lines of thoughts are dangerous in their own respective courses. I debate, either I should stay the state I'm in or I should go to seek help from someone like a psychiatrist. I'll write more when I choose one of these two options.

April 17
Hey book, back again so I went to the psychiatrist yesterday and they told me that writing out my feelings like this might help in my situation. Go figure huh? I guess I'll try to update more often because by this point I'm desperate for any fix I can get. The feeling of watchful eyes is only growing in my mind. Trying to debate the situation out only seems to increase the number of outcomes to where I could die. It's morbidly interesting to delve into your own thoughts of your demise. This train of thought is probably not helping my situation. I'll write later when I come to a helpful conclusion to combat this outcome.

April 23
Hey book, yea me again...I have to make a long trip to another place and back due to work. The problem with this is I'll most likely be driving back in the dark and with my increased paranoia I don't know if I will be able to. I know it sounds stupid, I sound stupid to myself...but I can't logically shake this feeling...forget it I'm driving myself nuts. I'll write more when I get back.....hopefully.

April 24
Hey booky, I've seemed to survive the drive back this weird person kept flashing his lights at me while I was driving. He kept following me but I managed to loose him somehow.

April 25
I think the constant flashing of the lights caused a headache; I wish I could of given them a piece of my mind. I think this might be nearing the end of me writing in a diary I feel much better. I may even stop after this entirely and quit visiting the psychiatrist.

April 27
Yep this will be my last entry it's been fun and all but I think it's time to move on for all of us.....it's not like anyone will see this anyways.

I found this diary at a yard sale and decided to share it with the internet because I can't seem to figure out what this means. What I should say is that I did some research on the matter only to find out the owner of it went missing April 24 but the entries continue onward. I think the person she spoke of may be apart of this but I hate to think the worse. The only thing that stays on my mind is why he flashed his lights if he planned on stalking and killing her? I would like others inputs to figure this out; I would hate to think this person is still on the loose somewhere. I spoke to one neighbor who said that they believe they saw someone with the height of a average teen. They said it was too dark to make out anything but parts of the clothing. The description was as follows: A greenish jacket, black pants, and black boots. This was all they had to offer as a recollection of what they saw. I feel like this needs to be delved into deeper.

May 3
I decided it would be a good idea to update with details for anyone wanting to know the progress I've made. I tried to go back to the yard sale from which I attained it. It appears as though sadly they were doing the yard sale because they were leaving town. So that lead seems to be lost but I was able to continue the search elsewhere. What little info it sheds light on I went to pick out. She seemed to talk about how she went to a psychiatrist for a short period of time. If I were some how able to find this psychiatrist it would greatly increase the chances of getting a clear resolution (what ever that ending may be). I'll try to find and convince the psychiatrist to help me. I'll update when I find the psychiatrist I hope.

May 10
I've gotten pretty busy as of late so that has hindered further progression but I was able to get the name of the psychiatrist she might have used. I'll look into it at later date but something else I discovered was that the investigation was dropped rather early on. I can only ask why that was; what event sparked such an apprehensive behavior of the police?

May 14
I was able to get an appointment with the psychiatrist, I will decide to leave their name out for privacy. They told me they were unable to divulge anything with their clients this may be another dead end but I urged them for the sake of her that just maybe we could catch this person. However, they seemed to not understand the same feeling for justice and a conclusion. Yes, I didn't have a bond with her but I do think she deserves some kind of good resolution. In the most optimistic view she could still be alive out their running away from what ever was after her.

May 20
A thought crossed my mind recently once I re-read the diary of why the person kept flashing their lights behind her. What if someone was in the back; it seems like just an urban legend but if that was the case the attack would duck down every time the person turned their bright lights on. This is troubling because she mentions that she was able to loose him. So I think by this point we can confirm that if we find her it won't be alive.... If I want to continue this private investigation I may need to find this person which may be quite impossible.

June 13
It's taking a lot longer to find any more evidence and I may want to just stop the investigation and hand the diary over to the police. That might be the best decision in this whole situation. I really don't know because they seemed to just toss out it the first time so what's stopping them from doing it again? At this moment however I am at a loose.

June 25
I was able to get in contact with the police to hand over the book and pass the baton over to them. I will hand it to them in the morning just to get this off my chest. I will not be continuing the logs once it's handed over and done with.

June 26
I was able to give it to someone who claimed they were part of the police investigation. So I guess this is the end of the logs? I guess I'll be able to drive back to my home town now that I'm not investing time in this. I may write one more log after this if I am able. If not then goodbye and I wish you all well it has been interesting.

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Thanks for the diary...I really appreciate it.