Caught off Guard

You just caught me off guard

I felt so much
In just two months
All I wanted was loyalty
All you did was play me
I don't fall in love easily
You just fooled me
The feelings came so quick and had me shook
I displayed myself like an open book
I treated you like my man
When you couldn't even claim me as your lady
You were the only dude
I wanted to run to
You could have said you didn't wanna commit like that
Instead of treating me like a doormat
I can't believe you had me wondering if I was enough
That shit was rough
The trust was slowly breaking
But I was the only one left aching
I was hurting so much until now
Until your sister showed me how
You was sending I love you
To a girl you swear wasn't your boo
I wanted to be your everything
But you showed me I was nothing
You really got a cold heart
And you tore mine apart
You shouldn't have lied from the start
So I could watch it all fall apart
Said you wanted to be my first everything
You was just teasing
I didn't know I was on the down low
Turns out you just another hoe
Like how you gonna say you love me
then go and disappoint me
If you really loved me
You wouldn't have put yourself in a position to potentially lose me
There were signs that I dismissed
But now I'm seeing that you're a narcissist
You ain't give me shit
Cause you ain't shit
Ya you caused some damage
Boy you ain't a savage
Claimed your cockiness
Was confidence
Really all you wanted was an audience
I wish on the day we met that I would have stayed in bed
You were always just a tone-deaf-arrogant shithead
I won't forget
How many times you said bet
What were you betting on
My loyalty
My love
Or how long it would take for me to be gone
I was intoxicated by what I thought was love
But that ain't really enough
You thought you could hide
My intuition has never lied
I should have known it wasn't gonna work when I had to lurk
You tilted your phone
And left me so alone
You got a new chick
But she ain't really new
You were being slick
When you told me not to worry
Cause y'all were just friends
Now I look stupid
Cause I listened
You moved on a day later
But I don't hate her
She just a little naive
But she'll see
Cause you played me
And you're playing her
and played all them other girls
You blamed your games on your old chick
Still thinking you slick
You just started acting sus
Cause it was never just us
You didn't always treat me like shit
But then you flipped it
You switched up
So I gave up
I just wanted to say that you hurt me
You had my heart
But decided to break me
You never deserved what I offered
Even my tears left you unbothered
Even though what you did hit my core
I'm not blaming myself anymore
You a heartless fuckboy
And the worst kind of mamas boy
You were my downfall
It was a close call
I'm building though
All this is helping me grow
You never seen I deserved more
Therefore
I'm learning to love my beauty and brains
Watch as my happiness gains
I dodged a bullet
Glad I never let you hit
Everything that happened was a lesson learned
Better believe the next love is gonna be earned
You really thought you weren't gonna lose
When all you had to do was choose
You're playing with fire
It'll backfire
You're gonna get burned
Trust that it's everything you earned
It's sad you can't show your sis how a woman needs to be treated
Our bond grew when you cheated
Even though she's strong and can do it on her own
Im gonna show her the ropes
The bestie is gonna help too
Since you wanted to act brand new
I'm not gonna trip over you any longer
If I did
How could I get stronger?
Always trying to act like I'm dumb
Boy you just a LITTLE thing that I need to overcome
I was willing to be your ride or die
But this is definitely my Goodbye