There it was the sign I despised the little pink plus sign my back slid down the wall, my knees met up with my chest and I began to sob into my knees. Of course I knew who’s kid it was I thought to myself it was Carter’s. Carter and I had been together for two years and we just recently broke up when I told him I might be pregnant. So how did I end up in this position? Honestly, it’s a long story one that every time I tell my stomach feels like it could fall out of my body and I could be sick.
Just then I heard banging coming from outside the door and I instantly knew who it was of course. I really didn’t want to answer because I wasn’t in the mood to argue with her. Every time I seem to go in the bathroom Kaitlin has to use the same one as well.
“Aleeah, come on I have to use the bathroom!” yelled my annoying little sister who was being very consistent with pounding on the door.
“Use the downstairs bathroom and let me be” I told her frustrated that she wouldn’t go away like I wanted.
“ Can’t mom’s in the shower getting ready for work” she replied with a sigh as to tell me come on give up already.
“ Just give me a minute to get up and I’ll be out” I told her then I quickly got up reapplied my make up , grabbed the test, and wiped away the left over tears. She gave me a dirty look when I opened the door finally and shut it behind her.
I headed to my bedroom to check to see if there was anything new on my phone and when I looked at it I was shocked to see Carter’s name on my phone right next to the missed calls. I felt nervous my palms were sweaty but I knew he had to know although I was scared my baby would definitely need it’s daddy. Besides it’s no longer about me and him anymore so I picked up the phone a called him back. The phone began to ring once, twice, and then for a third time.
“Hello?” I heard coming from my phone that familiar and all to smooth voice I had once been in love with and still am.
“Carter?” I questioned unsure if it was him he seemed all to calm for it to be his.
“Aleeah, what’s the result?” he asked straight to the point not even asking anything else which kind of hurt.
“Positive Carter, it’s positive” I told him as I began to lightly sob again just then I looked up to see my sister standing the doorway.
“Aleeah what are we going to do?” he asked
“Honestly, I don’t know but I’ll call you back later” I told him then hung up my phone
I sat there on my bed trying to ignore the fact my sister was holding the wrapper to the test but I couldn’t I had to say something it was all but impossible to ignore it.
“What’s that?” I glanced up looking at it then direction my attention towards Kaitlin. I knew that already had figured it out and with her big mouth im sure our mom already did too. My sister never could keep her mouth shut about anything but then everything turned in one second.
“Aleeah, come downstairs I need to talk to you” my mother yelled up the staircase. My stomach instantly sank and I felt like I wanted to throw up. I headed downstairs hoping she didn’t know what was going on.
“What’s up?” I asked my mother trying not to show my fear of which she probably already can see.
“Aleeah, sit down” She told me and I wasn’t going to argue with her on that note.
“Mom, you’re scarring me. What’s going on?” I asked her and with all honesty I was confused but I kept trying to hide it.
“It’s Carter. They found him today… I’m so sorry hunny!” is all my mom said
“What do you mean they found him today?” I replied to her almost sounding angry.
“Carter was in a car accident about an hour ago… he died on the way to the hospital.” My mom stated.
“What? No!” tears began to fall down my face I felt as if I were going to collapse. He hadn’t been in a car accident I just talked to him around 3:30. When he had called to find out the results he seemed fine and nothing appeared to be upsetting.
I ran up the stairs only to run into Kaitlin half way she looked at me with slight confusion. I glanced at her then kept going towards my room. My hand made a heart shape around my belly button as if I had been pregnant for a long period of time already.
My baby is going to born without a father I thought to myself and it didn’t seem to be possible. I laid down finally on my bed and sobbed then it stopped everything went black and I fell asleep.
