Everyone gave me a tight hug. I'm so happy to see everyone after a long time, but also nervous.
I haven't seen Jungkook yet. He's probably with Lisa like always. I have to just let them be, right?
I really want to see him, but I don't at the same time. I told myself I can't face him because of all the problems I started back then.
I did miss him though. I had dreams about him and I..weird huh? I actually thought I was over him, I told myself that many times.
But he kept popping up in my dreams over and over again.
***
"Bye guys", I said while waving at them.
They all said their goodbyes and left. The house became silent once the door was closed.
I'm glad the others helped clean up the mess we made, I would've been too lazy to do it myself.
I headed towards the bathroom and did my night routine. I went straight to bed and wrapped myself with the cold blankets.
It's been really hard for me to sleep. I mostly have to take sleeping pills, which I hate. But it helps me sleep and that's all I want.
I closed my eyes and tried my best to get my mind off of things right now.
***
"A-Ahh..what are you doing here?", I asked.
Jungkook smiled at me softly.
"We haven't seen each other for two months and that's all you say?", he said.
I laughed awkwardly.
"Hello there", I said.
He rolled his eyes.
"Put on your shoes, let's go out somewhere"
"I-I look like trash right now"
"No you don't, now go put on your shoes"
***
He's acting weird. He's mostly with Lisa..he's mostly talking about her too. Did those two get into a fight? Did they break up because of me?
"What's wrong?", he asked.
"I should be asking you that"
"What do you mean, I'm the one that hurt you", he said.
I was a little shock by what he said.
"Y-You didn't hurt me at all", I said while trying to put on a smile.
He let out a sigh.
"How come you're not with Lisa?"
He was silent for a moment.
"..We broke up"
Oh no..this is my fault, huh?
"..I-I'm so sorry.."
"It's not that big of a deal though, she was the one who cheated on me"
Wait..so it wasn't my fault?
"..Tae, stop thinking about the bullshit back then..you didn't do anything wrong, I just assumed things..and I'm sorry about that"
"W-Wait, don't apologize, I was the one that-"
"I have to apologize, I was the reason why you left, right?..Tae, I'm sorry I neglected and ignored you"
I sat there silently.
***
Jungkook and I stared at the fireworks shooting in the air. This carnival had so much food, I literally ate everything.
"Wahh, it's so pretty", I said.
Jungkook smiled.
"It is"
I looked at him and smiled.
"..Thank you for spending time with me Jungkook"
He looked at me.
"Don't thank me yet, thank me when we're eighty years old"
I chuckled at what he said.
Things changed..and I'm happy about that. I still don't know if I should be happy or upset that Lisa and Jungkook broke up though.
I mean she was his happiness. I know Jungkook is hurting, even though he isn't showing it.
But I'm just happy that we're hanging out. This is all I wanted. Yes, I did think of us as a couple way back then, but now..I'm actually just happy that we're spending time together
Thank you Jungkook for taking me out and spending time with me. I really missed this side of us.
Let's both be happy together.
The End
