Why does it always seem to end in my fault for being childish and not wanting to grow up. Why does my ADHD have to be so controlling over my every decision added on to my emotions still developing control everything I do. Why does stupid high school relationship break ups have to control how I feel. Why can't I honestly be happy ever? I'm scared of actually going through with suicide knowing sometimes it just feels right even though it shouldn't. Why do I have to be so attractive to the point where I will be single forever. Why does every relationship have to end with me getting attacked by everyone who is a new friend of mine. Why me? Why are these feelings and tears happening? I want to feel loved by myself along by someone outside of family. And maybe I should be alone for the rest of my life for the better.
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thought journal
Randomif anyone actually reads this it's just my thoughts. I want to put them out there along with my emotions because I'm the person who doesn't show anyone but myself my true colors
