[SebaCiel] Loving You Is Easy (Mpreg)

His butler, returning

Sebastian pov
It was time for me to return home. I wonder how my little kitten Ciel is doing. After that little meeting I wanted to hold him. The carriage pulled up to the manor as all the servants rushed out. I was looking for my kitten but I didn't see him anywhere.

"Where's bocchan?" I asked quickly. They all glanced at each other before speaking.

"He's upstairs..." Finnian said. I nodded and walked up there. "Wait Mr. Sebastian! T-the master had an accident so he's resting!" Mey-rin yelled at me. What kind of 'accident'? Is he alright? How bad was it? All these questions made me hurry even faster.

I opened his bedroom door and found him sleeping with bandages wrapped around his head. Other than that he seemed okay though.

"I cant leave you alone can I?" I asked mainly to myself. I moved some of his hair out of the way and smiled at how peaceful he looked. He started mumbling things within his sleep most likely having a dream about something.

"N-n-no.. I-its not what you t-think I swear... Please d-don't g-go... I love you..." He mumbled as his smile faded into a deep frown as tears flowed like a river down from his eyes. What did he mean? What is he talking about? I would never leave him. I listened to him continue.

"I-if you don't w-want it I can place it elsewhere just please... Don't leave me alone. Y-you can't I need you!" He cried out as his breathing started to shake.

I started calling his name so he would wake up.

"S-Sebastian! I--" I cut him off with a hug and a long kiss to show I would never leave him. That I care about this young boy so much.

He wrapped his arms around me tightly. This moment seemed to last for eternity. Slowly we pulled away as I looked into his eye waiting for him to tell me what that was about.

That never came however. He simply wiped his eyes and trudged out of the room not even bothering to look at me. What is happening? What happened while I was gone? I followed him to his study where he sat in his chair as if that had never happened.

"Ciel what happened?" I questioned trying to drive out the sadness in my voice.

"Let me do my work. And it's young master to you. I don't want to hear anything from you demon now leave me. That is an order!" He said monotonely. That stung alot. I don't understand what's happening. So I left just as ordered.

I went to go look for work to do to take my mind off of it but still found myself thinking of him. I walked into his room to see if anything needed to be cleaned or disposed of. I found a doctor's note for vitamins. Maybe I shall run down and pick them up then. Yes that's how I'll distract myself for now.

Ciel pov
I don't understand! I want to tell him but at the same time I'm scared he'll leave me. Maybe I'm just pushing him further away somehow. Naturally my hand found it's way down to my stomach gently rubbing it. There will be a time where I cannot hide it anymore but what will I do then? Surely Lizzy will ask questions like she always does. Someone knocked on the door most likely Sebastian so I quickly arranged myself normally and allowed him to enter returning to my stoic expression.

"Young m-master I found the doctor's note on your nightstand, s-shall I go pick it up?" He asked with a hint of trembling within his voice. I took note of that but remained quiet not addressing it.

"Yes you shall" I ordered burying my head deep within this book and discreetly sneaking a peak a his expression. It was a painful little broken smile that shot a dagger through my heart.

"Yes my lord" he mumbled out with a bow as he closed the door. Leaving me alone in my study. Alone and by myself just as I was on that day. No mother, no father, no...

"Yes just the way you were on that day. He will leave you just like that. All he wants is your soul after all..." A voice spoke out to me. My eyes darted around the room but seeing no one I just thought I was losing it. Whomever said that though seemed to have a point. He is a demon, a species that is incapable of feeling the emotion that is love.

"Yes that's right... He won't ever love. Especially someone like you. A prideful. Bratty. Tiny. Vengeful. Egotistical worm like you." The voice whispered into my ear. Each word sending more daggers into my heart. I turned and saw a distorted image of my family. Burned with the scorching hot oranges, reds and purple. They held out their hand to me.

"Come 'Ciel' it is time to join us." My mother told me with a smile.

"Yes don't you want to join us brother?" My older brother Ciel asked as I saw him wearing the same tattered and trashed clothing as that day. His stomach cut open and blood all over. I took a step backwards as my breathe hitched. I couldn't.... B-breathe. I started coughing just like I did back in my youth. My asthma has returned.

They inched forward with each step back until I hit the wall behind me. Dammit!

"Join us Ciel, why don't you?" They all said. "It is your fault after all. You didn't help us at all, you watched as it all happened!" They screamed, violently shaking me making me tremble. I couldn't say anything back because I did. Its all my fault. All my fault. All my fault! I needed a demon to come and save me because I was so weak and helpless.

My brother yanked the ring off my finger. Thats right. The ring that isnt mine. The ring I don't deserve. I don't deserve your name I took because I wanted revenge. A foolish revenge that will end up with me complete within the belly of a beast for all eternity I must spend. The room filled with fire as smoke filled my lungs. My vision getting splotchy and faint as I panted trying to fill my lungs with air.

"Very good 'Ciel' Phantomhive... You have finally realized it." The voice said to me. It stood behind my family tall and slender wearing a butlers uniform. Its red gleaming eyes pulsated with a mix of fascination, intrigue, superiority, and narcissism. The rest of its features though I could not see the the thick cloud of feathers that obscured my vision.

"I will be watching you from very close so be a good boy and keep this to yourself" the voice that sounded familiar told me with a smirk. The image of my family went away as the smoke and flames cleared. Leaving the figure clad in black cloaking its self in darkness. Slowly it disappeared leaving me in my office.

Shaking like an idiot I fell to my knees. My bottom lip quivering as I saw my tears spill onto the floor. The bright blue ring staring at me giving me a constant reminder of my weakness.

"Dammit dammit dammit!" I cursed furiously. What the hell was that?! I choked. "I need Sebast...ian..." I had just barely pulled off my eye patch before passing out...