I knew we could never be together.
It wasn't just our differences that separated us; it was our unique way of understanding each other. Behind our masks of secrecy, we revealed the darkness behind our eyes while speaking in riddles and metaphors. 'I'm messed up, but don't abandon me.' His brown eyes transform to green when he somehow hears this and yet loves me anyway.
He always listens to me as I pour my heart out, and he never has the perfect solution to my problems, but I wouldn't expect him to. Many problems go without reason, or too many reasons. But he knows this, for he knows me.
I hated that I fell in love with him, but I was too in love with the idea to let it slip away. It was crazy how I felt the need to define myself to him. He didn't define me, to be clear, but I desired to be more of myself through him.
Wasn't this the offbeat definition of soulmates? Is there another way to describe it? However, I knew we could never be together. Our relationship was built on nothing more than revelations behind closed doors and away from the real world. We were able to release the stress weighed upon us, but it's best not to get greedy.
He belongs to someone else. Time was not our friend and we met just a little too late, and we couldn't disrupt settled lives despite our hearts constantly flying from our chests to grasp onto the others' for just a few seconds longer...
This is a tale of soulmates that never had a chance. The dramatics are unnecessary; it was only meant to state the truth. It was safe to have hidden feelings for each other, because who would be all the wiser? Alas, they were not hidden. Far from it. You can't hide something that titanic.
But, it would not end for us the way it should. His place isn't with me.
The last time I saw him, he turned and smiled at me. It was sad...somewhat regretful. We never crossed that invisible boundary that kept us so very close, yet miles away. That lack of complete desired connection would be the damning thing that kept us connected forever.
But he and I both knew...we could never be together.
