When will it stop
Are they waiting for me to give up.
Nobody knows how bad
I mean they took everything I had
It wasn't only just my friends
It was all the thoughts in my head
They took everything that made me
Exchanged it for someone nobody can see
I'm drowning so i scream
They block me out like a team
I used to speak
But nobody cares if I'm weak
So I decided to go silent
Nobody knows what their words meant
I'm not even afraid
I will just fade
Don't stop me please
I know you're only trying to tease
But really it's not funny
Oh because honey
When the girl dies
Everyone will begin to see behind her lies
You guys think you can just deny it
but the words I write won't allow it
Today's the day I break,
because the more you said, the less I could take
So once you see
My cold, pale, dead body
Will you be sorry
Well here's a sad story
You won't show
You'll just say, I won't go
But still nobody will stand up
Some won't even watch my body dump
So few will cry any tears
Instead they'll jump up with cheers
They'll stare at my empty seat
Just like they would make me stare at my feet
The make another suicide joke
There'll be that one girl where the jokes make her choke
She'll feel the guilt
She knew what the words had built
But she didn't say a word
And my cries for help were never heard
You two won't feel the burn
Even though you guys are the cause both your heads just turn
Someone mentions a suicide
The memory of me comes to mind
You look at each other
Then let out a silent fit of laughter
The teacher shoots a death glare
But the two of you laughing at my death really isn't rare
Today marks one year
Nobody sheds a tear
That one girl is the only one
Who remembers that inside I was really someone
She walks down the hall with a frown
One of you guys bumps her with another sick joke trying to be a clown
She glances up at the ceiling, silently asking me
Is it too late to answer your call for help, "set me free" that's what you'd beg me
She knows I say it's not too late
But she pretends I tell her it is, all that's left is hate
She shakes her head in shame
This is all just a cruel game
The two of you found out by one
That it's been a year since I've been gone
So the suicide jokes continue through the day
From sixth hour until about the middle of May
Only reason they stopped
Was because again, I was gone and they forgot
One month later
I would've been a driver
The 24th would've marked 16
But I was gone before I even turned 15
The few people who cried,
That day they found out I died
Wake up with this unbearable ache
Second year there won't be any cake
A girl I once called my best friend
Remembers the day that my life had an end
Still laying in bed she rolls to her side
And stares at the picture where my smile didn't have anything to hide
It's a picture of us at her basketball game
We were both laughing, she was surprised I had came
This girl that never cried
Wiped a tear falling, her sleeve soaked it up, her face dried
Her sister sat on her bed
Summer was her favorite she said
Her sister nodded, whispering I know
Let's remember her with a smile, even when there was snow
She sat up, moved herself closer to her sister
Her sister looked at her, go ahead I'll be a good listener
Remember when she slept over
And dad put his foot up on her
Her and her sister laugh
But she quickly remembers I was her other half
Her sister senses the sadness
And attempts to give the good memories a few more chances
Don't you remember the birthday weekend
Her sister said quietly hoping to bring a smile that's not pretend
She sits there and names
The only thing that's left, I lost their game
Even when Im no longer here
They still continue to bring me tears
I was more afraid of going to school
Than I was to die, there's only one rule
Don't forget what you did
Because I died, and I was just a kid...
