It's scary to fall in love with a close friend. It's scary to fall in love period. When you've been knocked down so many times...when those around you use you you begin to build up walls. So what should I do when you were a Trojan Horse that somehow, made it's way pass my walls without that being what your aim? How is it that you found your way into my heart so easily?
I love you. That's what this feeling is right? The fact that I'm nervous around you and my stomach twists and turns and I can barely contain myself. We still are friends because my stubborn will won't allow me to ruin our friendship...thinking that this is just a stupid crush that will soon fade away and I no longer hold back my blushing face around you.
When you talk to me it's like a sympathy is playing while I lose myself in your eyes that remind me of the dirt that allows flowers to grow, hoping you'll catch on because grandma said that by keeping eye contact, a guy will know you like him.
The thought of my hands roaming through your untamable yet neat hair as you hold me close to you just to enjoy each other's company makes me melt even though I know it's just my imagination.
The butterflies in my stomach that begin to fly when you're around long to escape as beautiful words as I tell you how amazing and wonderful and perfect you are no matter if you're happy, or sad, or anything else.
Your voice wraps me in a warm embrace like how a mother embraces her crying child who had awoken from a terrible dream.
Your smile rivals the shine of diamonds and your laughter, though the funniest thing I've heard, will always bring a smile to my face.
The way you help your friends, even though you need it more is admirable and I wish you would turn to me so I could help you with your problems but I understand, so I don't pry into it. I know it isn't my place.
Your personality is the most beautiful thing about you. I wish I could describe it properly.
You have a childish way of playing around with people that makea everything more enjoyable.
Your eyes sparkle in joy and delight at the mention of your interests that I can't help but be pulled in just by your childish smile, or the passion in your words.
Your passion is admirable.
You won't let anyone stop you from doing what you love to do.
The way you're always willing to help me no matter what the reason may be and that you're always the first person I can turn to.
I remember the first time I've ever cried in front of you... I remember that you gave up something you have so much fun doing just to make me smile. How you took me by the hand and played a song for me on the piano. That was the first time I genuinely laughed as when you were done, you wouldn't leave my side until you knew I was completely okay.
I know that if the opportunity where to ever come, I would try to do the same. Though I can't play an instrument, would my voice be a suitable substitute though it pales in comparison to your skill?
The fact that a compulsive liar like me can only tell the truth around you, that you're the only person that I don't feel the need to pretend that I'm someone else and I can actually feel comfortable with being vulnerable around you means something to me!
A girl that is so used to being used by people who worked so hard to break down her walls, that only builds them up taller and stronger than before can only do so much to defend herself when they finally break them down...so please be careful while you're inside a place you didn't have to destroy to get into.
Be careful here as you are one of the few who were let in.
Be careful you don't break me from the inside.
It's okay if you're still oblivious to my feelings...and it's okay if you always will be.
You don't have to love me back and we can just be friends but I just have to say that
I love you.
I love you.
And though it's hard for me to say it now, that doesn't mean it will be forever.
My walls are beginning to come down on their own. I can tell from how unsteady my heart is around you.
You have such a strong will and drive that I'm sure whatever you do will lead you to the top of what you want.
There are so many good things that will come your way in life and I hope that I am already one of those good things in your life that you don't ever regret the time you have spent with me as friends.
You're my best friend and no matter what, you can always count on me to be your right hand man and always stay by your side, even if I'm just another friend to you at the end of the day.
Until that day I have the courage to say this to you, you're my best friend through and through and that can be enough for me if it's enough for you.
