don't forget about me [re-edited]

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Okay, now we have reached the saddest chapter of all our lives. Want to know why I made this chapter very sad? it's because i'm in a verge of sadness right now. Has any of you guys seen the latest episode of Hunter x Hunter? If yes then cry with me. If no then see if for yourselves.

That is the main reason why I'm sad. Oh well, I just hope you cry the to the depths of your deep deep heart, minna.

You will betray your lover, Kil.

I know you love her. As I said, assassins are not allowed to have friends. Or lovers for instance.

I know you'll kill her. Because that is your main course. You are an assassin.

And assassins don't need lovers and friends.

Kill her, Kil.

I opened my eyes instantly. I looked at the big window and saw the rain pouring down. As thunder crashed to random places, I looked at (y/n) who was peacefully sleeping. She curled up to her pillow and began to chant,"Blueberries..."

I smiled at her warmly. I have to admit she really looks cute when she sleep talks. Then i saw non other than Gon sleeping on the couch. His hand dropped to the floor as he began snoring. Can somebody tell me, am I the only person who was having an uncomfortable sleep?

I then looked at (y/n). I watched her sleep for a moment. Until somebody flashed into my mind,"Kil! Kill the woman." I furiously looked out to the window,No. I just wonder why my aniki Illumi's been pestering with my mind lately! And I hate it!

Illumi spoke to me once more,if you don't want to kill her, I guess I'll have to kill her. My eyes widened as thunder boomed again. And there I saw, my aniki standing right next to me. I quietly mumbled,"No... Don't kill her. She's my highest priority."

Illumi bent closer,"You're just scared." I casted a glare at my aniki,"No!" Illumi then looked at the peaceful (y/n),"Then prove to me. Kill (y/n)." I was now shaking with fear. I didn't know what to do after that. W-Why can't I move all of a sudden.

More thunder boomed.Until I started to stand up and run,"Dammit!" (A/N: Okay guys, this might shock you. But I'm only adding this word once. Okay? Are we good? Okay. Let's continue.)

Then I started to run for the door. But then a hand stopped me from reached the doorknob and pulled me. Illumi caught me by the face,"Kill...her...or...I'll...be...the...one." Then everything in my mind became blank. Everything in this whole world went ballistic.

When I looked, Illumi was gone. Did he... did he really... make me suffer? Did he make my life suffer through a whole lot of things that cannot be done to me? I walked to the side of (y/n) and stood there, looking at her beautiful face.

Tears began to stream down from my face. Will this be the last time I'll be ever seeing (y/n)'s face again? Is this the end of her? Does she deserve to die like this?

As I held her face, I spoke my words of agony and pain,"I love you." And with that, my hands ran through her neck and choked her. I got out my claws and stabbed it deeper through her neck, off to her vital points. I could hear yelping from her until I felt her body stop. The grip on my hand loosened, her hand dropped to the floor, blood began dripping.

This time, I completely woke up, and saw the crime that I have done, I let go of her neck and (y/n) dropped to the ground, more tears were streaming down from her face. Gon woke up and gasped as he saw what I had done to him.He screamed,"(Y/N)!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Gon ran to her and hugged her like  teddy bear, Gon looked at me and yelled,"WHY KILLUA! WHY OF ALL PEOPLE! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO KILL HER?!! TELL ME!" I just stood there speechless. No words were able to come out of my mouth, I just kept on crying,"What... have... I done?"

Gon just glared at me, tears starting to form on his eyes. I just touched my head,"I'm such a loser..." Then I dropped to the floor and began crying,"I'M SO SORRY GON! I'M SO SORRY! I NEVER REALLY WANTED TO KILL HER! IT JUST GOT INTO ME! CONSOLE ME,GON! CONSOLE ME!" Gon just stared at me with a shocked face. I could tell that he was speechless,"K-Killua..."

I gripped the ground harder, causing it to make a mark,"I'm such a fool..." And so, I repeatedly said that to myself.