They Saved Me (boyxboyxboy)

Trying To Forget

*Killian

It's been almost two days since we read the note and anguish had fallen over the shop like a blanket.

We were all trying our best at normalcy, even Noah who looked paper thin and dead to the world. It was remarkable to see the changes a body could go through in just a little time. But in this case, it was absolutely painful to watch.

Noah asked for more drugs and less food. He was constantly in pain and appreciated the state of mind the painkillers and other drugs put him in. Me and Kieran were hesitant with the drugs because we didn't want him falling into new problems. But the haunted look in his eyes had us caving every time he opened his mouth.

Although his outward appearance gave no way to peaceful nights, the drugs had him constantly loopy and in his own world. I wouldn't say he was addicted but he was certainly very dependent on them.

Today, he got out of bed extra loopy. I could see it in his droopy eyes as he forcedly shoveled down breakfast and went to sink down into the couch tiredly. He didn't generally eat much and the lack of familiar activity was really taking its toll. Without the easy smile on his face to say otherwise, it was clear that Noah was in pain.

He had dark, hollow circles under his eyes and the bones on him were more prominent.

Lying back on the couch, Noah closed his eyes and rested.

Kieran entered the room and looked over at Noah with sadness in his eyes. It had been quite a familiar sight and we were both hoping it was only temporary. Like how he'd been when we'd first taken him in.

Kieran walked over and stood next to me, shoulders slumped and feet dragging. I was worried about him too. Something was going on in that head of his. Likely beating himself up for this.

"I'm gonna go out to the store for a few," he mumbled and turned to walk away before I could say anything.

I sighed and returned to the counter where I was preparing food. "Be back before lunch," I called out.

Noah was healing well but at the same time, he was crumbling from within. The injury and possible threats had him wary at first, but the added stress of the note was the final draw.

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I jumped and turned around the the feel of hands sliding around my sides. The body attached to the hands fell onto me causing me to lean on the counter to gain my footing. The face attached to the body tilted to the side questioningly.

Noah's eyes were looking up at me through thick, long lashes. His pouty, pink lips and tilted head gave off a confused impression, even though he'd been the one to fall into me.

"Noah, what are you doing?" I asked cautiously. Maybe he just tripped while getting food.

Although those hands on me had felt quite deliberate as they did right now while clutching at the front of my fittingly tight shirt.

Ignoring my question, he looked up at me with smoky eyes and leaned his face in to the curve of my neck.

His warm, breathy sigh swept over me, leaving me tingling all over. His lips came into contact with my neck at my pulse point and electricity shot up my spine.

My body jolted a little and for the first time, I noticed that the warm, tingling sensation had flooded downwards to wake up my not so dormant dick.

A soft, wet drag up my neck had me throwing my head back and letting out a carnal sound I could barely recognize as my own.

The mouth on my neck stopped to nibble right below my jaw. His teeth pinched my skin between his teeth and delicious pain blossomed into unbelievable pleasure.

As much as I needed but not so much wanted to push him away, i couldn't. The pressure of his lips on my skin and the gently swipe of his hot, moist tongue was hypnotizing.

I couldn't think and it was as if all was forgotten I this moment of bliss. If the vibrations of Noah's moans on my neck and the engorged cock pressing against my thigh was any indication, I'd say he was enjoying this as much as I was.

The threats. The drugs. The depression and sorrow. All gone. Always for now. All was right in the world for once. Yet something still felt lacking. I felt guilty, like I shouldn't be doing this but I couldn't stop. For the life of me, nothing could stop me now.

I pulled my hand up and stroked through Noah's light, soft curls. As he sucked marks onto my neck, I tightened my hand in his hair causing him to moan loudly.

I brought my other hand down to his ass and cupped the perfectly shaped cheek in my palm.

I threw my head back letting him lick and suck and opened my eyes. Through the tiny slits in my eyes, I spotted a figure at the door.

For a few seconds, nothing registered. The beat of my heart slowed and then pumped quicker than before as the figure cleared up to reveal a shocked yet broken looking Kieran.

Kieran!

I'd forgotten. If that didn't make me feel bad enough, the sight of his face falling and the flash of betrayal in his eyes broke me completely.

His jaw clenched in indignation. Id been right before. There had been something there. Between him and Noah. Maybe they hadn't acted on it but it was there. At the thought, something fierce and painful shot through my chest as I looked helplessly at Kieran. Even Noah who was drugged to the point of no sensibility had the sense to look remorseful.

But did he not like what we did? Well what he did because I was utterly powerless.

The stomp of feet and the slam of a door brought me out of my selfish inquiries.

How could I have been so close-minded as to have done this? To my own brother even!

To say the least, I was ashamed at the way I'd responded to Noah's advances. I wouldn't blame it on him but only on myself.

I couldn't.

He was under influence. I could've stopped if it hadn't been for- What was even the cause? I had no excuse. I'd have to own up to it.

But how did one approach the subject when there had been no excuses what so ever for his actions.

I wouldn't blame Kieran if he hated me, and judging by the look in his eyes, my guess shouldn't be too far of.