Back to You

1- Hearing things

I cried.

Nice thing I do once in awhile. I let all my emotions out. I don't let anything hold me back.

I felt as my wet and salty tears slowly slid down my face dripping onto my blanket and pillow. I clutched onto my blanket as I dread the idea of going through today pretending that everything was perfectly fine in my life. People are normally to consumed with the thought that their lives are far worse than others. I sometimes think it myself before i scowl at the thought of me believing such a thing. There will always be someone out there in the vast world who has it harder and rougher and there will always be someone who has a better life than you. It's not fair and I won't say it is, but it is life.

I think back to Alex. His smile. His cocky self. His laughter. Anything that i could remember about him.

I wish I could see him one more time,but it's way too late now.

I pick up the year old newspaper gazing at the front page looking at it without reading it fully.

I felt my eyes build up with tears as i read the awful title;

"A 17 year old local High school student dies from a hit and run trying to save his dogs life."

I sigh as i pull my caramel hair in a loose ponytail letting stray strands of hair gracefully falling on my face. Wiping my escaped tears from my eyes I put my blue rimmed glasses on and crawl out of my bed.

"Ava! Honey you are going to be late!" I heard my mother scream from the base of the stairs in our house.

"Dont worry mum! Im getting dressed now!" I yell back quickly before heading to my closet.

Taking off my shorts and tank top I get new undergarments on and jeans and Alex's old black hoodie.

It lost its scent a long time ago but that doesn't stop me from wearing it whenever I can being one of the few things i have left of him with me. I think back to the day to the day I got it.

Flashback

I had awoken when I heard a tapping on my window.

Getting out of my warm nice bed I walked to my room's window opening it up. Looking out the window leaning out of it slightly I see Alex looking up at me, grinning, with a handful of pebbles.

"Alex?!" I shout at him in a hush whisper, "What are you doing here so early?"

I look into my room at my clock that read 7 am. I could feel the slight dewy and chilled weather from my open window. I glance at the sun peaking over the trees.

"What? Can't I see my favorite girl" asked Alex winking at me while he said that.

I look at him at disbelief "That doesn't mean you can't come back at a more reasonable time! Im was sleeping" I slightly pout as I think of going back to my warm bed.

"Well.... How 'bout you let me in and we can cuddle" He says with a cocky smirk,running a head through his hair. Whenever he is unease or unsure of what he just said/did he does that.

I sigh and look at my bed and him and back again. "Fine you can come in but-" I wave a finger at him "-no biting" I add with a playful glare.

He pouts and exclaimed "It was one time!" He tosses the pebbles on the ground and jogs to the back door. I watch as he takes the key that was hidden in a fake garage switch and unlocks the door stepping inside.

I wait, laying back into my bed hearing him walking through the house and quietly up the stairs making sure not to wake my mother in the meantime.

I see him opening my bedroom door and stepping in quietly closing the door behind him. He climbs into the bed while i move over. He moves his arm upwards giving me room to snuggle into his side. Immediately I felt more warmth and the comforting smell of pine and vanilla. He moves a little ore around trying to get comfortable before finally falling asleep. I gentle close my eyes letting myself be warped in the warmth and before long I'm asleep myself.

End of Flashback

Mum walks in seeing me start to gaze at the wall in my own thoughts. I turn around when i hear a sigh.

"One year today, Honey" I felt my stomach clenched at the thought of it being a year without him. Begging to anyone for him to just skip into our house and yell at me to get my ass moving so we won't be late for school.

If only we could go back to those days. Those days were filled with so much happiness and light.

"I know, Mum" I smile at her trying to keep the mood somewhat light knowing Alex wouldn't want us moping around being all depressed.

"Your so strong baby. You never forget to smile for him. You've grown up so much, so much" She wipes her eyes and picks me up into her warms crushing me in a warm embrace only a mother can give you.

"Mama I love you I'm not going anywhere any time soon" I laugh slightly hugging her tightly back.

"I know I know your old mum just making sure now let's get your ass to school"

"You're not old mum" I giggle slightly grabbing the car keys out of her hand and slipping my canvas bag over my shoulder.

"Bye Honey!"

"Bye Mum!"

I go down our stairs, through the kitchen to the door, and step outside getting in the car my mum and I shared. I pull out of the driveway and halfway to school im awaken out of my day dreaming by someone talking. I look around confuzed.

"Huh?" I turned slightly towards the radio and saw it was off.

"Strange" I mumble to myself. "I swear I heard someone saying something."

"That would be me" said a deep smooth voice from the back seat of my car

I turned abruptly to look in the back seat and let out a screamed.

"A-Alex?!"