Trial and Error

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Noemi pov-

When Eric left I called my friend Kay to vent about What just happened

Though Rilan and David are my very best friends, I refrain from heavy details about my relationships with them because they don't tolerate boyfriends who fuck with me

They don't know how to keep things civil after I tell them the fucked up shit my boyfriend at the time has done to piss me off or made me feel uneasy about

Kay however, can. She keeps a straight face and acts normal, as if I didn't just tell her some shit about them.

I told Kay how he pulled me into him and was making suggestive jokes. I told her about the better man he promised he was becoming..just for me. And how all that made me feel.

She told me not to forget that he was unwilling to change while we were together, leading to our split in the first place. How he wants to change now that it's too late. How it's not okay for him to pop up at your house, especially now that I'm in a relationship. How he totally skipped over harassing Tim and not telling you what he told him. How I shouldn't forget how badly he treated me when we were together.

After venting to her and having her remind me of some things, we ended the call.

I still loved Eric. I couldn't admit I was still in love with him though, and I wouldn't.

Eric was my first love.

I had boyfriends in the past and I fucked around in high school. But I was never head-over-heels in love with those boys. I never gave myself to them fully. I wasn't willing to try certain things with them sexually. Nor did I support them in everything. My relationships before him were limited because though I loved some of them, I simply was not in love. So, when things got bad between us it literally felt like he was breaking my heart. I felt like he was taking the last breath from my lungs with no care in the world. And on top of that, he made me believe that it was all my fault that our relationship was falling apart.

He was my world and I was the moon that revolved around him

Kay helped me remember the heart ache he caused, during and after our relationship. It helped me fight the urge to fall for Eric's bull crap he spoke so smoothly

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I called Tim and he answered so we spoke for a while as well

A tiny portion of our conversation of our conversation went to sex but Tim ended it rather quickly

I had no problem having sex with him, Tim was the one who seemed unsure.

He's a big boy, whatever he decides, I'm fine with. I'm not gonna try to figure him out. It's too early in our relationship and I have other shit to worry about.

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That night I got ready for bed and went to my living room to play a movie

For dinner, I prepared Salmon, artichokes, and wild rice

I'm not good at making salmon but I always try

Everyone gets their salmon to turn out so moist but mine is always so dry I end up using tomato paste to make gravy for it from scratch

Nevertheless, the end result is always delicious. This particular meal just requires a few extra steps.

When I was done making my plate I put all the dishes in the sink and grabbed my half gallon of ruby red grapefruit juice along with my plate before making my way to the living room

Of course I had to rewind the movie all the way back to the beginning

My kitchen was open to the living room so I the aroma of dinner was all throughout the house

I ate my dinner and drank from the jug directly since I lived alone

After finishing my food it didn't take long for me to fall asleep on my couch