What She Sees (KN Castillo Series #4)

WSS 40

I don't know if Mavi or I got enough sleep while we're on our stay in the cafe. Hindi kami nagc-check ng oras habang nandun kami.

All I know is that we entered the establishment past 1 am. That's it. Other than that, I have no idea. All I think about is our talks and catching up.

Marami kaming napagusapan habang nandun kami. I mostly did the talking while he was just listening. Things were always that way even before. I talk while he listens.

Mataas na ang sikat ng araw at parami-rami na ang mga taong pumapasok sa cafe. Mga taong maagang nagising para makapagkape, they all look so comfy on their clothes while the both of us look like an eyesore with our fashion show clothes on.

I looked at Mavi na prenteng nakaupo lang sa couch, his arm is draped around my shoulder while looking at the bay window that lets the natural light inside the building.

"Hmm?" he looked at me when he noticed that I was staring.

I smiled at him. "Uwi na tayo?"

After asking, I felt a small hole digging inside my stomach. I suddenly felt the sadness slowly consuming me. I looked into his eyes and knew that what I was asking is not making him happy either.

Nangungusap ang mga mata namin habang nababalot kami ng katahimikan. It was like the world immediately shuts down and just focused on us and on our troubled feelings.

"Psyche..." he called me using my name.

I just raked my eyes on him and slightly opened my mouth. "Yes?" I asked breathily.
He smiled.

That's it. In his smile I found the answer to the question that I was just asking a while a go.
No one wants to go home.

No one will go home.

And just like that, we both did the same thing again.

***

"I can't go home, Mav." I told him nang nakasakay na kami sa kotse niya at nag-iikot nalang sa maliit na town na 'to. "Mom and dad will surely find out, malamang pipigilan nila ako at alam kong pupuntahan ako ng mga kamag anak namin. They will ask questions about-"

"Relax darling." he said while chuckling.

I looked at him seriously. Nakaawang ang mga labi niya and a smirk is hinting on his lips.

"Aliw na aliw ka ah." I rolled my eyes at him and crossed my arms. Sumandal nalang ako sa bintana.

He slightly laughed. "Sino ba namang hindi? I know the situation, Castillo. Hindi mo kailangang magpaliwanag."

He said seriously.

I shut up and internalize what he just said. Alam niya ang sitwasyon. He know the risks and yet here he is, still doing the same thing.

Alam kong gaya ng dati ay may madadamay na naman, may masasaktan na naman kami sa kagustuhan naming makasama ang isa't-isa and it pains me so much knowing that only thing that I keep on wanting in this lifetime is always an impossible thing for me to reach. We can never have the thing that we always want, they said; and yet here I am giving it a try.

"Hindi ka ba natatakot Mav?" I asked him.

He just looked at me and gave me a pained smile. "I've been scared of losing the people I love my whole life, Castillo." he bit his lower lip, eyes are fixed on the road and hands are firm on the steering wheel. "Believe me when I say that it sucks when you live life in fear."

A smile crept on my lips and a light feeling is surrounding me. Taon ang lumipas mula nang huli ko siyang nakasama but he didn't change a bit. He's still the Mavi that I know. Deep and mysterious.