Unravel (Creek)

Chapter 7

They arrived a Clyde' house, and almost every guy that they knew was there listening to music or watching tv. Tweek and Craig were greeted when they entered, Clyde smelt like he had a few beer and from the looks of it, his dad was probably out with his girlfriend.
          Ever since Clyde's Mom tragic death, his dad forgot how to be a parent and pretty much let Clyde do whatever he wanted.
          "So what's this about?" Craig asked walking into the family room that was pretty much Clyde's game room.
           "So the girls created a new list that I thought I'd share with everyone."
            "That's what we're here for? Yeah, sorry guys, but I'm going home," Eric said irritated, standing. He didn't do well in the last list.
             "This list is different, it was made not just by our girls but with the help of the new girls at school. Fresh eyes. Also more guys to judge," Clyde said and held up a USB.
           "So, who is the cutest freshman?" Stan asked, very curious.
            "Sit," Clyde said excited. Eric sighed and then sat down. Clyde gave the flash drive to Token who connected it to the computer that was connected to the screen.
              "From your smile, I take it you already looked at the list," Craig said, not surprised.
              Clyde grinned, sitting on the arm rest of his couch.
              "Where did you get the list from?" Kyle asked.
              "Lisa Berger," Clyde blushed.
              "Your ex that turned extremely hot and wants nothing to do with you?" Kenny said with a grin.
             "Oh she wants me, I know she does." Clyde said, confident.
              When the list appeared on the screen everyone quieted down, and focused on the list. Everyone except Tweek. Tweek who sat next to Craig skimmed the room. There were Xbox games spread all over the coffee table and beer on the pool table. Pizza boxes on the floor and paper plates everywhere. If their parents knew about the beer they'd probably lose their shit. Or not, after all South Park parents weren't really good parents.
             "Like Craig is still number one," Stan said irritated, his girlfriend was on the committee and must have agreed. The guy who was voted number two surprised everyone in the room. Everyone turned to Tweek.
               "What?!" Tweek asked, startled as all eyes were on him as his eyes returned from scanning the room.
              "Second cutest," Kenny replied. Tweek was surprised, but didn't care.
             "Unfortunately, I don't have a shoe shop to give them free shoes," Tweek joked. Everyone but Clyde laughed.
             "I am number 6?" Eric said shocked.
              Eric changed the most over the years, as he got taller, he became leaner and was actually handsome. However he was still an asshole/psychopath.
               "Who the fuck is Gordon?" Eric asked.
                "Fucked up face," Kenny added.
                "Wait, how old is this list? How is fuck face even included after Tweek kick his ass first day?" Eric asked Tweek.
                 "He is actually not bad looking, he is a brown haired Kenny," Tweek said and everyone turned around to look at him. Tweek paused, "What?"
              "So you've been checking me out Tweek?" Kenny teased. Tweek turned red and gave him the Craig finger.
                "So you have a thing for people with dark hair and blue eyes?" Craig added with one eyebrow raised. Tweek wanted to say maybe, but Craig did not look entertained.
                Tweek sighed, "I am just saying that if the list was discussed before the fight, he is actually good looking. I would move him or Kenny to number two."
                 "You are making me blush," Kenny replied, grinning.
                 "Shut up," Tweek laughed.
                  Craig stared at Tweek, but said nothing more.
                "I think Craig is in his feelings right now," Clyde said, laughing.
               "You will be feeling a lot of things in minute if you continue," Craig warned.
                 Clyde quieted right away.
                 "Good thing is we managed to stay at the top of the freshman list," Kyle said proudly.
                 Out of 40 people on the list, everyone in the room stayed at the top 20. Tweek turned to Craig who even before he saw his face he felt Craig's anger.
                 "What's wrong?" Tweek said confused.
                  "Not important," he muttered.
                  Confused Tweek left it alone. The rest of the evening turned into the guys arguing over the list, hottest girl, and video games. Craig felt better as the evening went on and went and joined the guys by the pool table. Clyde's Dad pop in for a bit and then disappeared up the stairs with his girlfriend.
                   At around 10 pm the bell rang, Clyde opened the door yelling excitedly, "Come in!"
                 Lisa Berger, Nichole, Wendy, Heidi, Bebe, Jessie, Red and the rest of girls poured in.
                 "Who invited you guys?" Eric asked, annoyed to see his girlfriend. When Tweek look at Craig he looked a little agitated. All the other guys were excited except for Tweek.
                 "Clyde said it was ok," Lisa said.
                 Tweek pretended not to watched as Jessie worked her way to Craig. She went in for a hug and he hugged her back kissing the top of her head. Then Craig did something Tweek have never seen him do. For a moment Craig shut his eyes before kissing her head again and they stayed locked in each other's arms for a few minutes before separating.
              It was then that Tweek realized that Craig may have been in love with her. Tweek started counting backwards, his heart again had sank to the bottom of his soul and he was trying so desperately to find it and mend it quick.
                These were things Tweek already knew. Craig doesn't have feelings for him, Craig broke it off, Craig moved on—immediately. Tweek was trying to accept that but it was very painful for him. Tweek's eyelids turned red as he was trying his hardest not to cry in front of everyone. Butters left Bebe to come sit beside him. Handing him a can of soda. He didn't say anything just gave Tweek the company he needed and the block he needed from seeing Craig.
              Tweek wanted to thank Butters, but he was afraid it would trigger the tears he had been fighting back.
              In the background, a song by Sam Smith,'too good at goodbye' started to play and although it wasn't Tweek's musical genre, it touched him as he felt the song was for him. It was exactly how he has felt the last few days and when the song was over he knew what to do. It wasn't clear before but at that very moment it was something that he had to do to preserve his own sanity. He needed to say goodbye and avoid Craig 'till they graduate from high school.
             After taking sip, Tweek plotted his leave. He knew getting up and walking out would make things extremely awkward, so he had to wait perhap use the bathroom and leave out the back door.
                 When it seemed like everyone was focus on the side, Tweek go up and walked to the back room. From there he past the bathroom and went out the back door. He felt like he could breathe again, like the walls were not closing in on him anymore.
               "Tweek,"
                 Tweek stopped, did he have a chip in his body that alerted Craig whenever he was not around. Tweek balled his fist and turned around and snapped. "What?! What is it now? What do you want from me?" Tweek said freaking out. Craig was shock at Tweek's violent outburst.
              Craig frowned. "I'll walk you home," Craig said.
              "I don't need you to do that! In fact I don't need you to do anything for me. I just want you to leave me the fuck alone!" Tweek yelled, the tears that he had kept in finally broke the line spilling down his face and they were hot.
             "Tweek, let's talk," Craig said, concerned.
               "No, I don't want to talk,"
               "That doesn't make sense, you are upset let's talk about it."
                "You are the last person I want to talk to about my feelings. Either you are self-absorbed or selfish not figure out that you are the cause of my frustration,"
                "I'm sorry Tweek," Craig said.
                 "Don't be sorry just leave me alone." Tweek snapped.
                 "Please just tell me what's bothering you?"
                   Tweek paused as he tried to gather his thoughts. "I told you that I wanted you to be happy, and that's a fucking lie. The truth is I don't think I can ever be happy for you and I want to be but I can't," Tweek confessed, "Craig, you don't know and I hope you never know what it feels like to love someone who doesn't love you back," Tweek cried.
                 Craig was frozen.
                 "Whatever it was that we had, was fake to you but it was real to me. Craig, I love you, and I loved you enough to know when it time to say goodbye despite how painful it is."
                 "Tweek," Craig said now walking towards him.
                 "Stop where you are! I need you to stop or the moment I get the chance I will breaking every promise I have ever made to you!"
                 Craig paled, he knew the promise Tweek was talking about.
                 "I promise that I wouldn't hurt myself and you have my word but I need you to leave me alone forever, that is my condition. Don't call, text and please don't show up at my house unexpectedly. Just leave me alone forever." Tweek sobbed.
                 "I can't Tweek. Tweek, I love you too."
                  Tweek froze, his stomach twisted into knots, his heart was beating out of his chest. He just experienced a mind fuck and didn't realize Craig had closed the gap between them.
                "I don't understand it, I'm not gay, I'm not attractive to other guys, just to you," Craig said cupping Tweek's face. "I just need time to figure what everything I am feeling means. I just need time please."
             "I am sorry Craig but I can't be around you and your girlfriend while you try to figure out what you want."
              "I'll break up with her," Craig said, as tears covered his eyes.
             "I don't want you to do that, I watch you today Craig, you are obviously in love with her." Tweek shook his head, his tear were still hot as they fell. "Am I wrong?"
               Craig couldn't answer.
               "You know you love her, but with me it's something you need to figure out," Tweek sighed. "Think about it, you are in love with her after just one summer with her, and we faked dated for years and I've never seen you look at me the way you look at her. You don't love me, you are just afraid to lose a friend."
                 "That's not fair," Craig cried.
                 "Life.... it isn't fair," Tweek said, cupping Craig's face and lightly kissing his lip before quickly walking away.