Entangled in Love

Chapter I

Meera's POV

Blazing sunlight was hitting my face making me feel more and more exhausted with every step I took. Taking my surroundings in I realized, the surrounding was strange. I have never been to this place. It is so strange and it gives me a pit in my stomach. It is not somewhere in woods where I am surrounded by green lushes. In fact, there are all concrete buildings,  I am surrounded by. I could feel my legs paining and sweat running down my face. I am actually chasing something. No may be some one. Or I am finding some one. I feel lost, not understanding what exactly I am searching here. I think I am getting closer to the person I am chasing. He has worn his dark rugged denim and grey t-shirt. I know it is him. I know him like the back of my hand. I need not see his face to know it is him. I know it is him. 

I could feel tears flowing and I am shouting him to stop. He turns behind giving me hope like he always gives. And then he just gave me a smirk and disappeared . Just like that he vanished. 

I jerked up soaked in sweat.  I felt strong rays of summer sun on my face indicating late morning. Looking at the clock I realized it was 11 am already.  Like a routine, I just stayed in bed staring at my ceiling, thinking about all sort of what - ifs, imagining how life would had been if he was still there, getting scared of future, etc., etc.,. It has become an everyday routine. That shallowness, that pit in the stomach that I feel everyday. Getting out of the bed has become the most difficult task of the day. But somehow, somewhere, I have just got used to it. Being happy has become alien feelings for me. 

It has been 1 year 9 months 12 days since he has left me. Left me alone to cry and break down. Left me alone to pick up my broken pieces. Left me alone to deal with all the mess. Left me alone without any answers, without any closure. 

There has been not a single night without such horrifying nightmares. I feel choked and strangled. But somewhere some how it has become part of me now. It does scare me but I have come to a realization that I can not change it. I have to live with it. But acceptance also doesn't get rid of such dreams and pain. 

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