Twins love and hate

Chapter1- information: unknown pov

Im a mother of 2; twins at that. I cant say im happily married. I cant say im happily engaged. I definetly cant say I have a happy life. Im happily nothing. Now im stuck here with 2 kids I planned on NOT having. ME, Renee Richards, is stuck in the most horrible life. Isabella Marie Swan and Ceaira Alexis Swan.  Mixed kids but Ceaira is more black than Isabella. Their mixed because Charlie has alot of African American in him like 3/4 but Ceaira took that and Isabella took 1/2. Their oppisite and Ceaira I juat go crazy she yell not cry. Bella screams when she cry. I cant stand it. Im stuck because I cheated on Charlie with Phil and I end up going to Phil house so we can talk about what happened cuz it was one time thing. We was drinking and went home by ourselves..........well you know. It happened again.And Charlie came the same night and we did the same thing that night. Then found out I was pregnant. I was planning on getting an abortion but Charlie noticed it before I could. He wanted to see what it was when found out it was twins he was thrilled. I thought about a 'miscarriage' but I couldnt hurt him. I told him it might not be his and he left. I told Phil it was his but after awhile we notices Bella had Charlies muddy brown eyes. Ceaira had the little carmel brown eyes. No Phil was in there. He asked about it and I told what happen. He called me out me name and told me im nothing and nasty for doing it with 2 diffrent men in less than 12 hours. He left me with these annoying kids. I tried to get in touch with Charlie but I couldnt. I havent really did anything for them. I just feed them 2 times a day. Rest money I make is for me. Im was 23 when Phil left me and he was 24 and Charlie was 25 at the time. I had to prostitute. I try to stay fit. I have been raped on time. I plan on having which ever one comes put pretties, look like Ceaira winning, so I plan on teaching her to learn what I do. She will be punished if she dont. But they got to pay bills at around. 15 so they will be used then too in bed untill they can get to my position. My thoughts was interupted with the screaming crybaby brat. I huffed and went up stairs to her. She just screamed ans she woke up the mean one. I just glared at Bella, she always crying. I hate the brat twins. Picked them up sat in a rocking chair and leaned beck and rocked them. Ceaira was digging her nails in me. For them to be 2 months old their mean. I jerked back and she fell side ways and hit her head on the arm rest. Now she start crying.

"SHUT UP!!!" I yelled they got louder and louder. Ceaira got some lungs so she was loudest.  I just sat there shaking my leg trying to bounce them. Charlie will be over tomorrow so I cant give them anymore bruises or scratches. He dont know anything after that day. I checked Ceaira side head and she had a bruise. I huffed I just will tell him....... she hit her head on the side of crib during sleep. I start looking around their room. Nothing really on here 2 cribs, a changing table with diapers on first shelf, and in the bottom cabinets one lotion, one powder, and baby oil, and a rug. and I didnt buy none of that baby shower. I have spent nothing but $10 so far in baby milk. They went back to sleep in bottles with cereal, put them in their cribs and I got ready for my night shift at the corner. I was pretty much in panties bra and a leather jacket. I walkes to my car it was just a toyota. I drove to my car to my destination. My friends dont know I have kids or babies. A man came up to me and I pushed him up against my car. He looked around early thirties. We see him often so he already knew what was coming for. I did a dance all on him. He picked me up against the car with my legs around his waist. He start push all up against me. I got down push him in the back seat and he start stripping himself and myself.We was both naked and we finished thirty minutes after, I sat up he gave me. $20 and we got out the car. 2 of my friends went in with one person so.....yeah. After 2 more clients I was on my way home. I was use to my car smelling this way so I just drove home. When I got home I got cleaning stuff to clean my seats. Get all the.....stuff off my seats just in case Charlie decided to go anywhere in my car. I sprayed freshener and black ice car scenters. I went to bed and was not getting back up. They start crying and I kept where I was they eventually they fell asleep.