You Left Me Alone, On My Own.

Chapter One

"You don't think about it?" The lieutenant, Sousuke, above me in rank asked me.

"Huh?" I wasn't paying too much attention. And now was making a fool of myself infront of a lieutenant.

At this rate I'll never move up from the 5th seat. Changing my rank and getting stronger have always been my goal, but I'm always making things difficult for me and basically everyone else in my squad.

Even out of my squad, like now, with lieutenant Aizen..

*sigh*

"I said, do you ever think about the future. Do you see yourself being at 5th seat of a squad forever?" He repeated, not minding that he had to repeat himself.

He was such a nice man, we didn't talk much. But when we did he was always kind and caring, asking question to in help me. When I asked him why once, he simply said because he was bored, and knew I needed a friend here and there. It was true, I don't have much friend, no one especially likes me, I don't blame them though. It'd be hard to overlook all my all my failed missions. Some say, I don't deserve my seat, and should be boated out. But the captains and lieutenant always silence them, with hits on the top of the heads, and such.

"Eh, of course not. I really want to move up in my rank. Im trying. Maybe one day be at your level, if be pleased with third seat honestly. As for the future, maybe one day someone will want a future with me.. But I don't see that happening. Just look at me." I said, mumbling the last part, hoping he would hear the last part.

"And what would be the problem with your looks, 5th seat of squad 9, Miss LyTanna Kurimaru? Huh?" A new voice spoke, causing me to turn around with wonder, but Aizen turned alwell, looking unfazed by the voice.

When I turned, I was face to face with a slouching captain with long blonde hair. And when I mean face to face, I mean, in my face.

Which was causing my face to turn red. I was shy that way, I hated attention being put on me.

How'd he know my name? I've never talked to him before. Only seen from a far.

It was the Captain Shinji Hirako, Aizen's squad captain. I believe of squad five.

"Captain, well hello. I didn't see you coming." He said to his captain. Which caused the man in my face to back up and take focus off me, and onto him. Thank god.

"Of course you didn't, that's why I'm the captain, Sousuke." He said, smugly before he turned back to me.

"So, I care to explain what you were talking about? Just look at you, you said?" The blonde captain asked, tilting his head to one side, still liking at me.

"Um, Captain. I'm sorry. B-But, I don't understand?" I asked, confused on what and why he was asking me this.

"You said, just look at you. Was that to infer no one would like you when it came to your looks?" He said, taking a step back, and literally started checking me out. Making my face grow to a brighter shade of red. And what made it worse, he noticed it, making he chuckle some.

I was losing my words due to embarrassment, so I just nodded my head yes.

"If that isn't the dumbest thing I've heard all day." He said standing up straight. "Come on, have some confidence, women." He added.

"He's right, LyTanna." Aizen piped in with.

"I'm sorry, Captain" I mumbled, I didnt know what else to say. I nervously then, started playing with my braid, on the side of my shoulder. This conversation had made me anxious with all this spot light attention on me.

"Well, it seems, the sun is setting. I think we should head back to our barrics, you as well." Aizen stated, fixing his glasses as he looked at the now setting sun. It was a pretty red fading to black.

"I guess you're right." I said with a sigh. "Have a good night then, Captain. Lieutenant." I said starting to walk off.

Only to be flashstepped infront of by Shinji. Taking in his features, like I'd had dine before from a far, he was good looking. Even better up close, like this. I was then, snapped out of my daydreaming, by said squad five's captain.

"It'd be wise that when talking to a captain next time, that you don't blush so much, but yes, have a goodnight yourself LyTanna." He said before walking in the opposite direction than me, with Aizen following behind.

I don't understand. How can I possibly get stronger. I can't even flashstep that fast. Granted he's a captain.

Still! I can't stay this weak. I just can't.

As I made my way into my barrics, no one greeted me, they acted as if they couldn't see me. It's used to bother me, now I was just used to it. They only acted nice when someone important was around, to avoid a scolding. Gee.. they thought I was too weak to even acknowledge, they really thought I shouldn't even be 5th seat or even beingn in squad nine.

Once to my room, I took off my everyday wear, laying my sheathed sword next to my bed, slipping on a plain black pair of shorts and a t-shirt to match. And climbed into bed, I didnt bother eating dinner.

Too tired.

And in all honestly I didn't want to deal with the hostile environment.

Not tonight at least. So with that I closed my grayish eyes. Thinking of what those two said, about having self confidence in me.

It's harder than it seemed. Especially since I hated what I saw looking back from the mirror.