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Welcome home (Imagine)

I've been crying for hours now, all by myself.
What is it even worth living for?
Everyone seems to be disappointed in me.
I don't know if they really are but that's just the way I feel. I've had that feeling for a long time now. I feel like I'm lost.
Left alone. Invisible.
"(Y/n)?", I hear (y/bf/n) shout.
"I'm back home hun!"
I should be happy.
I should get up, greet him, hug him, kiss him, like I usually do.
But I just can't stand seeing him right now.
I'm not worth to be loved by him.
I don't deserve it.
"Are you hiding from me?", I hear him ask from downstairs.
I don't want him to see me like this, so I just don't answer, pulling the blanket above my head.
Just a few moments later I hear his steps and feel the mattress moving as he sits down next to me.
Softly he grabs the blanket and puts it off of me.
"Don't look at me", I murmur sniffing.
"What's wrong?", he asks worried, pulling my head into his lap.
I don't say anything for a while but as I started to describe how I feel,
I can see years starting to dwell in his eyes.
He doesn't say anything.
Instead he lifts me up as soft as he could, wrapping his arms around me.
I continue crying, hiding my face at his chest.
"Listen", he starts, his voice trembling.
"I don't want you to feel that way, there's simply no reason for it.
You're the most amazing girl I've met in my entire life and I love you more than anything else.
Nobody is disappointed in you!
And you're neither left alone or invisible or lost and you're definitely not disgusting at all!
You're such a strong, kind and loveable girl..
I don't want to spend my life with any other than you!
It just makes me so heartbroken that you really feel that way"
He pulls me closer, placing a soft kiss on my head.
"I.. I'm so sorry you have to see me like this", I say quietly, looking up to him.
"I love you so much (y/bf/n)", I whisper, wiping my last tears away.
"Don't think of such things ever again okay?", he asks, looking directly into my eyes.
"Okay", I say, nodding my head lightly.
He smiles, still looking worried and leans his forehead against mine.
"I forgot to welcome you.
So, welcome home baby, I really missed you", I say smiling.
"I missed you too", he whispers, pressing his lips gently against mine.
And suddenly all my worries were gone and I've been reminded of what I'm living for.

27/01/2018