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OhmToonz

×A/N - Another request from my wonderful, best friend whatever_gaming. Hope you enjoy.×

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Cartoon's POV

Since death is something that everyone will face sooner or later.
I don't think I should fear it too much.
I fear helplessness more than death.

Because it's right beside us and can easily suck us in anytime.
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hat's why I just can't leave a person in need alone.
Because in the past, I'm a person that always need other's help because I have nothing.
Of course I won't say it's my way of life since I have no plan to throw my life for others.
Except you and only you.
It's not like I prioritize my views than yours.
But if I think there's no hope for this society, I'd hate myself for that.

And you'd hate it when I hate myself, didn't you?
I might be selfish and maybe in the future I'll get killed for it.
But you've entered my world and I began to appreciate myself too.

You're part of my heart now.
I promise I'll take care of myself and our relationship.
I don't want you to feel sad because of me.
Today also, hundreds of people out there are in need.
Of course I can't save them all.
But if I start little by little from my surroundings.
At least that would change their whole world isn't it?
I'm sorry I didn't said anything
I'm sure you'll scold me when I'm back
But I promise I'll get back before you know it
Because I love you and will always love you, Luke

"There's no cure for his naivety..." Tears rolls from my eyes, as I read a paper that kept in a drawer beside my lover's bedroom.

"There's really no cure for his naivety... that idiot..." Why on Earth I decided to enter my bedroom on this specific day? Although I finally able to move on to my life after his first death anniversary, now it feels like all our time being together is like ages ago. The day when they tell me that Ryan died keeps repeating. Day when I felt someone rob my heart and lung because I can hardly sense my heart beating nor my lung breathe.

"Why you write this on this fucking paper you idiot..." I realized my tear wets the bottom half of the paper. I immediately grab a tissue and carefully wipe it so the ink won't get blurred. I also grab some for my eyes and my snot.

"You're really a fucking bitch. Playing around my heart and then left me alone..." If only he was here, and tell me it's just a joke. I'd prayed to any God in any religion if they could give back my soulmate.

"What am I supposed to do now..." My friends always worried that I'd end up suicide, but I won't. Suicidal is the person Ryan hates the most. Ryan always tried to help people no matter how hard it is. That's why I'd vowed that I won't even think that's an option. I'm sure that I would get back to my normal life again, but not now, not today, not tomorrow, not next week, not next month, and maybe not next year.

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×A/N - Oops, sorry for it being depressing.×