My Unrequited Love Story

In my entire life, I've never been in love. I don't even know what the very word means. I've been infatuated and even had multiple crushes but I've never fell in love. They say love is sacrifice, love is blind, and love is unconditional. There are so many meanings of that word yet I want to find out what it truly means. What is the true meaning of love?

I've had crushes for every year. My feelings are not permanent for my crushes. It's normal for a person to have crushes and also normal to not have any. I'm the kind of person who can crush at first sight and would think I'm in love when in reality I'm infatuated. Maybe I just love the idea of being in love because I always think that I am in love.

Now that I'm older I think I'm just infatuated with my past crushes. Boys aren't a problem in my daily life and they are not a hindrance in my studies because I chose to stay away. I chose to distance myself from other guys because I know myself. I'm dumb, gullible, and naïve. I'm old enough to say what is wrong from what is right. I maybe old for fairy tales but I still believe that one day my prince charming will come to save me from my loneliness.

Then he came along, the boy who changed my perception about love. I admit he was no knight in shining armour, he was not that tall, dark and handsome. He was just that mysterious guy in a mask happily playing his guitar. I think I liked him because he was like that, mysterious. I think my heart skipped a beat when I first saw him and all I did was shrug the thought off and focus on my studies.

Finally, the time had come for me to move-up in sr. high. It was time to move-on from my past and face my present and be prepared for my future. All I've ever think of is myself and my future. I know I can be self-centred but this is the way I am.

I didn't think that in an unexpected moment I would meet him once again. And I didn't expect that I would fall for him in a glimpse of an eye. I knew I was going to fall at that moment but as I always do distance myself from boys in order for me not to fall for him any deeper. But to my dismay I fell into an even deeper hole I could never get out. Then there is this little voice saying you're still young maybe that's just infatuation.

I thought of this over and over again. I never liked a person like this in my life. Knowing that I've never been into a relationship before I decided to search about love and base on cliché love stories and it really helped me, really it did but I was still not contented. Then it hit me how can I love when I despise myself. They say love yourself before loving others. So I've tried my best to accept myself and it wasn't that hard for me because my classmates are so good to me. I never wanted that to change.

Finally, I know what I'm feeling for him I accepted him with his flaws. I wanted him to be happy. I wanted to make him happy. I finally know that I love him.

Sadly, he's happy with another. She makes him happy. Knowing that someone else makes him happy I'm happy too. I'm just hopelessly in love with him. They say if you love a person learn to when to let go and when to fight for your love.

I've fought so many battles for that love but a last all of those battles I've lost. In the end I've accepted my defeat, that girl didn't even lift a finger to win those battles. She already had your heart in the first place. I accepted that you love her and I was just stupid to fight when I know I could never win. So I've decided to rise my white flag in defeat.

I know it's hard, he was my first love. But as they say love is sacrifice. So I'm here seeing my first love having his happy ending. And that goes for me for this is the ending of my unrequited love story.