~ Hell Born ~

Introduction

It seems to me that, there are 3 different types of people in this world. The first type, people who are perfectly sane, who know wrong from right. Who live perfectly ordinary lives, wake up every day, without any fear. Not even fearing what might happen in their future to come. People who couldn't give two shits. Who worry more about the simple things in life and don't think outside the box. They worry more about the food they're gonna eat, rather than wonder what the hell is going on around them.

The second type of people are the insane, the murderers, the rapists. The people who are perfectly insane, who do not know right from wrong? Who have no clue what the hell is going on. But live on the thought of harming others. The twisted, sick and the ones who need serious help.

Then there are the third type of people, the people who I like to call daydreamers. The types of people who focus on life generally, but in addition to that, they think about so much more. The people who want to know more, the people who's desire to question is greater than their thirst for answers. The ones who's curiosity leaves them in danger. They are humble people, who are careless and stumble on their own feet most the time. Unfortunately? I am the third category. I can't help my nature, my need for answers. I'm so curious to know things that many others wouldn't give a shit about? I guess..I'm just curious. I don't really know what to expect of my future, as my life right now..seems..off track. I'm not sure what to think of it. I'm just so confused, have you ever reached a stage in your life when you just don't know what to do anymore? You feel like, the world is just passing by around you..and you're standing there still, not sure why you feel paralysed and why you feel like you can't move?.. I'm looking for a miracle, and angel..someone. Anyone. Just save me.. Save me from this life. I'm fucked in the head. I seem like an ordinary girl, but I really am not. I'm anything but ordinary.. I'm stuck between my own fantasy and reality. I don't know what's real and what's not anymore.. I'm a sinner, who's committed sins that are unforgivable and I really think I've earned my place in hell. The devil is my father, demons are my brothers and sisters, and God seems to be my enemy. Help..