Secrets (A Hayes Grier/Matt Espinosa Fanfiction)

Chapter Three

I woke up the next morning never wanting to get up ever again. It’s been 15 hours since Hayes saw me at Matt’s. I check my phone for at least the millionth time this morning. Still no call, text, nothing from Hayes. I mean I can’t blame him. After that door opened, I had told so many lies that the truth came out.

After Hayes opened the door, we both stood there and stared at each other; not saying a word, barely breathing. The silence finally broke when Matt came up to the door and told me to come in. I awkwardly walked in while Hayes still stood at the door with the same blank, expressionless face staring at me. Matt then led me into the kitchen where Nash sat at the counter eating cookies. “Oh hey! Hayes, your girlfriend’s here!” Nash shouted to Hayes with a smile stretched across his face. “Yeah. I know.” Hayes answered not only confused but angry. “Hey...y/n can we talk?” Hayes questioned looking at me but barely able to keep eye contact. I soon nodded and followed him upstairs to Matt’s room. His room always had this amazing smell. It usually was his cologne but this time it was different. This time it was just Matt. And by the amazing smell of just Matt, I began to smile. That smile quickly fell when Hayes turned and looked at me. “Hayes-” He cut me off. “No. You can’t say anything. I’ll do the talking.” He snapped. “What the hell are you doing here? I thought you weren’t ‘feeling so good’. What happened? Why’d you lie to me?”

“I didn’t lie...I-”

“STOP! Stop all the lies! I don’t want to hear it. You look fine. You changed and put makeup on and everything. Did you not think I would find out about this?!”

“Hayes I was just stopping by to drop off his movie. He asked me if i had it and he wanted to watch it so I quickly drove it over. That’s all. I prom-”

“Don’t say it. You don’t promise. If you were really feeling that bad that I had to leave than you would’ve stayed home. And if you really were just ‘dropping off a movie’ then why’d you change? You told me yourself. You don’t need to dress up for Matt or me anymore. You’re comfortable enough. Or was that a lie too?”

“No. Hayes. I-” I cut myself off. I had nothing left to say.

“Just answer one question.” He asked me. I nodded. “Are you cheating on me?”

“WHAT?! NO! Hayes, I would never cheat on you. Ever. And you know that. How could you ask that?”

“BECAUSE I WANNA KNOW THE TRUTH Y/N!” I stood there shaking. He’s never yelled like this before. Especially to me. I knew I had to tell him the truth.

“Okay...the truth is...that this morning Matt asked me if I wanted to have another movie day...and I really wanted to go. I had barely seen him over the summer because of vacations… and I wanted to have one last day before school...and I didn’t know how to tell you. So -”

“So you lied.”

“No. Well..not exactly...well..yes.” I’ve kept my head down the entire time and when I finally looked up, I noticed that Hayes didn’t look angry any more. He looked sad. Like he almost wanted to cry.

“Why...why didn’t you just tell me? I would’ve understood. I mean we hung out practically everyday this summer and you barely got to see him because he was gone a lot. But you didn’t have to go and lie to me. I thought we had a trusting relationship. I trusted you.”

“And you still can!” I gestured calmly as I grabbed his hand. Quickly he pulled away.

“I just think I need time to think about what happened. I just need time.”

That was the last thing Hayes said to me before walking out. I didn’t stay long after that. I told Matt I just wanted to go home and raincheck our movie. Luckily he completely understood. No questions asked. By the look on his face I could tell that both him and Nash overheard our argument. As I walked down the hall to the front door, I passed the living room where Hayes sat on the couch; tears forming in his eyes. I never felt worse in my entire life. While driving home I couldn’t get his voice out of my head. I wanna know the truth! You lied. I trusted you. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I blasted our song, “Flights” by Jack and Jack. It wasn’t the most romantic song but that’s what made it so special.

Yesterday was horrible but today’s going to be a nightmare. How am I going to face him in school? I don’t think I’ll be able to even look at him without crying. Depressingly, I slipped on cropped yogas, my PINK sweatshirt (both from Victoria Secret), and my vans and slumped downstairs. After yesterday’s debacle, I wasn’t worried about making any junior year first impressions. BEEP! BEEP! I was about to go see who’s car that was when I got a text. Don’t worry about driving today. Wouldn’t want to stress you anymore on your first day. Traffic can be irritating. lol. I figured I’d drive you. Come outside when you’re ready. :) Before I could get a chance to look at the sender, I had hopes it was Hayes. Maybe this was his way of saying he forgives me. But when I looked I didn’t see Hayes’ name. I saw Matt’s.