My Lovely Mistake

"We've been friends since preschool Fred." I cry. What's he doing?

"It's not you-" Fred tries to say.

"Oh, don't you dare pull that lame shit over on me." I scream. Who does he think he is? Using the oldest breakup line in the book.

"Rose. I'm sorry. We're over." He sighs.

My cheeks are burning. I have known Fred since preschool. Friends throughout our lives until high school when we finally admitted our feelings for each other. I run as far and as fast as I can away from him. He's gone. I fall to the ground and sob. I scream as loud as I can. I don't care if anyone can hear me. I want someone to hear me. To comfort me and tell me that everything's going to be alright. I grab my phone and call Alyssa. My best friend she will know where I am. She always knows.

"Alyssa?" I cry into the phone.

"Babe, whats wrong?" She asks. i hear the concern in my voice.

"I-I need you." I sob.

"I'm coming. Hold on."

How can I hold on when my heart hurts so much? Everything hurts. I climb up into the treehouse. I need Alyssa. I need Fred. He said he loved me. He said he would never hurt me. He lied. I curl up onto the bean bag chair and sob. I hear someone climbing up the ladder. I put a pillow in front of my face to quiet myself.

"Who's there?" I whimper. I see Alyssa's head pop up.

"Its only me. I brought your favourite ice cream, movies, a dart board with his face on it, and your favourite CD's." God, I love Alyssa.

"Come here." I open my arms. She hugs me so tight. I love her. She turns on the TV and puts Titanic on. We cuddle up and watch the movie together.

"You jump, I jump remember?" Jack says to Rose.

Why can't real guys be as sweet as Jack? Its near the end of the movie and the boat has sunk. It focuses now on Rose and Jack. Jack is holding onto Rose as he is in the water. Why is this so sad? She tells him not to let go. Life boats come to save her, she has to let go of Jack. I sob into Alyssa's shoulder. Not only from the movie but from Fred. That asshole. The movie finally ends. Tissues are everywhere.

"How are you feeling babe?" Alyssa asks with worry.

"Miserable." There's no point in lying, she always knows when I'm lying.

She hugs me tight. "I just miss him so much." I cry.

I sob into her shoulder for an hour before falling asleep on her lap. My dreams are all clouded with Fred. Only him. His brown hair, blue eyes. God, I just love him so much.

*RING* *RING* *RING*

It's Fred. I rub my eyes and grab the phone.

"H-hello?" I mumble.

"Oh. I'm sorry Rose. It's just a force of habit to call you. I'm sorry." The lines dead. I cry silently worrying not to wake Alyssa. Everything was going so well with me and Fred. He knew everything about me. Maybe thats why he left me? Because he knew so much about me he finally realized how terrible I truly am. I shake Alyssa's shoulder.

"Lyss. " I whisper. She turns to face me and wakes up. I see how her eyes are full of light even when she's just waking up.

"Mhm." She murmurs.

"I gotta go home." I look down at the ground with tears in my eyes.

"Why darling?"

"I-I. I just need to go home."

"You won't hurt yourself will you?" She tilts her head. I look down at the ground and cry louder.

"Babe, you're worth so much more than you think." She kisses me on the cheek. She's always there for me. Even when Josh came into her life, her current boyfriend. I don't think he likes me but I couldn't tell her because she loves him so much.

"I'm not though. I'm nothing important. Fred he wouldn't have broken-"

Alyssa cuts me off "Shut up. I'm serious. You are the most fucking amazing person I have ever met. I love you so much. One day you'll see how beautiful you truly are." I look at the clock and it's noon.

"I love you." I whisper. "We better get going."

Alyssa climbs down from the treehouse first and I follow. I sit in the front of Darcy. An old blue truck that Alyssa has grown an obsession over. As we drive All Of Me begins to play. He loved this song. I can't help but sway to the words. 'Cause all of me, loves all of you. Love your curves and all your edges. All your perfect imperfections. Alyssa stops at Starbucks, I see her boyfriend Josh kissing another girl. I get out of the car to smack the shit out of him.

"Lyss. Stay here, okay?" I tell her grabbing onto her hands. She nods as she unlocks her phone.

"You son of a bitch!" I scream at her boyfriend. He pulls away from the girl smirking.

"How dare you? She gave you everything, you asshole!" I smack his face. He grabs his face in pain. He doesn't say anything, instead he looks at me in awe. The girl has scurried away quickly giving me the dirtiest look.

"You are an asshole, you know that?" I spit on him, literally.

"Id rather be an asshole than a suicidal whore." I bite my cheek to stop myself from crying.

"Just stay away from her." I threaten putting my fists into balls. He laughs. What's so funny?

"I'll be back." He turns away like one of those sassy rich girls in a movie.

I look into the car and Alyssa is crying. I run into her car and hold her tight.

"Boys suck." She mutters.

"Yes they do. But that's why I'm here." I kiss her forehead and wipe her tears with my fingers. She sniffles looking up at me.

"I love you." She whispers.

"And I love you." I hug her tight.

"You'll be okay. I promise." I say pushing her hair behind her ear. She'll be okay. I know she will.